The Czech world confuses me

Okay, so taoday was an orderanary Wednesday, directly after school we went out skating along the river, it's great, I love it! Than I got home, for like ten minutes and then off to the football training. It was great to able to move my body again without having trouble with breathing. Great! I often say that I hate going to the football training, I do, I hate when I go there, like before the training, but then I love it. I just have to get some skills too.

I could use some updates, like a new good t-shirt that doesn't smell like shit after the first time I use it, a new pair of shorts, summertime I need to get some brown legs, and maybe new football shoes, mine are not that old but I want those green ones, like my sister!

I've started to read Across the Barricades, it's about Catholics and Protestans in Ireland. Oh great, now you think it's really boring but it's not. I like it, and it's a great story! Even though I've only read like 25 pages... I love reading in English! Even though it's a pretty Irish written book... I have to get some Aussie books! Sometime. Just don't know any... - Yet!

I'm thinking about learning Czech for real now, since we'll probably stay longer than expected.

This is it for now! Sometimes I feel like I write blogposts like if the whole world read my blog, I've got two followers, wich I'm pretty proud of, when I started blogging, I didn't even care if anyone read my posts, wich I don't do now neither but I think it's nice every time I get a comment. Haha, I always find something more to write about!

Bye!

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

COOKIES

Hey folks!

I just made some cookies, in Swedish they're called "drömmar" wich is dreams. I did take some photos of them but I'm afraid that if I try to get them into my computer the whole thing will die. But I found some Google pics that show how they're suposed to look.

I don't feel s proud any more, lol.

But they are tasty! It's a pity I can't share tastes on here.

I feel like a real chef when I'm in the kitchen, noone is allowed to be near me and only if they're quiet and unnoticeable. I have to tell you, I often watch Masterchef but only the Brittish and the Aussie ones. I like the Aussie one the most, the Brittish one is so... Brittish? No but the Aussie one is so much nicer, it's a pity I didn't see who won. I saw like every episode except the finale... I personally loved Po (if that was her name) and Sammy, it was a pity none of them won.

I hope there will be another season and it will be on Swedish TV.

I feel like I'm such a split person, I love food shows and cooking, I love alternative rock and I want to be like Frank, I love hockey even though my friends hate it, I don't mind draw something now and then even though I'm out of insperation for the moment, I love Australia wich doesn't quite go together with the hockey, lol, I love photagraphing even though I'm a useless phoagrapher... Hmm I think that's me.

This will be it for today I hope!

Bye!

Keep running!

I sort of enjoy the fact that I'm misunderstood most of the time. That's fine.

I need to fix a header to the blog, like how interesting is it to just have the words? Not very much, indeed.

I'm planning to take a trip to the city today and take some photos, maybe I'll find something interesting. It will be rather boring to be alone, I could send some invetations but I forgot my phone at home. Stupid me, now when I've got the newer one I forget it... Why is that so typical me..?

Yesterday I got the FRIDA-magazine, I don't read so much in it but it's nice to know what going one, even though they don't write so much about the people I want to read about... But it's nice to have something Swedish to read. That reminds me about that I have to buy some new books when I go to Sweden next time (wich will be this summer). During some periods in my life all I do is reading, I love those times, I'm really in my own world.

About being in my own world I didn't dream anything tonight, hah, first time in five days. sometimes I feel like it's only in my dreams I live my life. Sick feeling.

I hate it when I look at the clock for the first time and it's only 8:15. That means it's long time 'til the lesson ends and I'm doing the wrong stuff. I shouldn't be writing during the lessons. Lucky me, my teacher doesn't know about it.

I really feel like having a barbie today (No not the doll, a BBQ). It was so long time ago and it should be time soon. Even though my family had this tradition in Sweden to not have a barbie before the 30th of April, that just doesn't work here in Czech Republic. It's warmer and earlier.

By the way - 30th of April is a date that means pretty much to me, it's Valborg (Valborgsmessoafton), and that has got some historical meaning but I don't care, it's also the day of the year when we for the first time of the year take our bikes, go to some friedns to the family and no matter the weather we have a barbie together. And I mean NO MATTER THE WEATHER.

So this is it from me for now!

Keep running!

When you think you're immortal, the way down is too long to climb, you fall or you stay, I falled.

I've been so stupid thinking everything is perfect and everything will go right, I was wrong.

So today has been good, better than I thought it would be. Susanne basicaly told me to stop being sad about the boys losing. I deserved it. MCR has released their Killjoys jackets, but they're only available in the US, I hope they'll come to EU. I NEED ONE! I'm just not sure about who's I'm gonna have. Ray's is the coolest one, no doubt, but you see Frankie is my wife. And the Way brothers jackets are also really cool. I wish I could buy them all!

I WANT THEM ALL!

I started to sew on my skirt today. It's inpsired from the fifties and it's black with wite spots. Maybe some green details.

I'm really restless and I don't know what to do. I was going to take the bus but my mum said "NO WAY YOU'RE NOT LEAVING THIS HOUSE, YOU'RE ILL!", I'm not that ill, I'm just not well enough to go to the football training. Tomorrow I'm allowed to go out, I have to, or I'll die. Seriously.

I dreamed tonight ("OH NO, WILL SHE EVER STOP TELLIN ABOUT HER DREAMS" you think, and no I won't) about I was on a boat, together with some friend and, there was this really annoying guy that I beated. It felt pretty good, all though I think he died... And then we played some game, we were locked up in a room and the only thing we had was a computer to play The Sims on and a bed.

And then I woke up.

I think that's it.

Bye all!

The smell of tears and wet mascara

I don't feel very well today, I think that I've got some sort of cold, just a small one before the real, heavy one begins. I hate the fact that I know how my body will react on a cold. My nose is just being stupid to me and I forgot all my napkins at home. I'm also really tierd, I went to bed at 22:30 but I didn't fall asleep until 0:30-1:00. So I can't concentrate, I can't read and my head's a mess. I can hardly write this. I don't know how I will survive this day, you know it's Monday, football and all.

Yesterdays eve was a mess, I was really happy, got home and did some homework (last minute...) and then I spent some time at FaceBook/Twitter/Blogger and then my dad got mad at me because it was late and I should go to bed, then we faught about everything and I went to bed crying. I've finally got a proof that I get black stripes down my cheek when I cry with my mascara on...

It's funny how my mood can go from ecstasy to suicide-thought (maybe not that bad...) in the matter of ten-fiteen minutes. In fact, it's so much easier to get back to great again nowadays, I don't know why but my personality has become so much more optimistic.

I've told my parents that I've quit blogging, and as you know, I haven't, but they actually read my blog and now I feel much better about blogging when they don't know, like it's my little diary, who wants their parents to read their diary?

I guess if they looked around they'd find it but not right away so I guess they won't...

I guess that's it. My biggest wish right now would be to throw up and get really ill so I could go home and sleep for the rest of the day... That'd be nice...

Bye all!

The feeling of hope

A victory! Yey! I've got back my spark and my hope, I know it's everything but over, well, it's a beginning. mm, and I've finally woker out who I think Spirko looks like; Paul Wesley! Don't mess with me, I like to find out who I think look alike.

Anyway, about today: Yes the swedes came here as I said they would and I'm sorry about the fact I didn't take any photos... So, I've got nothing to share, wich is pretty sad.

Then later we went to Ondra's bar to watch the hockey, and I said, my spark is back and I can sniff some hope coming back to me!

I'm not going to write anything more, I don't feel like it even though I'm pretty happy!

Bye all!

Pop-corn-war in the kitchen, hockey by the computer and cancer

Today me and mum baked semlor, it's like a bun filled with cream and marzipan. Great stuff! It's a Swedish traditiom to eat them on some special day wich I've forgotten but it was in February so we're a little bit late here.

Then I watched the hockey game and because it wasn't sent live I had to tell myself not to check hcpce.cz and look at the results, in the en, I did it five minutes before the end of the game. And, wow, what a suprise, no, seriously no, I just got sad, not suprised over that aweful score. Hopefully the boys will get back and win some game, I'm not so sure about the final this year I have to admit.

And after that I spent some time infron of the computer doing as good as nothing until 9:50pm and that's when The Big C begins, I have to tell you, I love it! It's just so great, so funny and yet so tragic. Cancer is a horrible thing!

I didn't sleep in y room last night, why not? Because my computer is weird and he was loading something all night long (wich I ruined today anyways)... I sort of like that room, and I like the bed most of all, hehe... Where you gonna sleep tonight?

Tomorrow's going to be nice, I'll take lots of photos and hopefully I'll share some of them with you! (Somehow I feel like I show you more photos at this blog, but yet not half the way as I'd like to) You see all the Swedes are coming and we'll have lost of semlor in different wariations. Like rasberries and chocolate, vanilla and the original.

No I'll go to bed, hopefully, and I will not be allowed to sleep longer that till nine, very depressing but true. I've got pop-corn between my teeth... (just sharing my deep thoughts) And me and Embla had pop-corn-war in the kitchen, how about that? We put IKEA-bowls on our headt and throw pop-corn on each other, we're very childish but it's so funny (the best thing is when you hit a flying pop-corn with a spoon)... But guess who had to clean the kitchen? Nevermind bothering...

Bye all! *kissing you all good night*

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

Hey all!

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba...

I have to stop shit-chatting with people til late every evening. I feel like a zombie today. I will surivive, hopefully!

So today will just be like normal, at least the school because later we'll go to the arena and watch Vendy skate. I'll bring the big camera (I always get happy when I think about using that camera) and take lots of photos and hopefully my computer will work so I can show you some.

I really need to repare my computer, the only thing is that I checked it just two days ago and it wasn't any probmel with it. I think it's better now anyways, because it turn off at least, before when I turned it off (or tried) it just stood there without any changes so I had to turn off the power and just let it die. Urgh, I hate doing that, I feel bad inside when I do that. (It's something mental)

A picture says more than a thousand words...

My dad's back from Sweden now, but I haven't met him yet, I guess he'll show up at the arena later. He went to Stockholm this week, he was in Prague last week and he'll go to Gothenburg next week. I sort of miss him, but I still think is's pretty nice without all the fights all the time.

I've just had Music, I'm writin about My Chemical Romance, this far I'm only at Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge and I've wrote one and a half page... It'll be more... I promise! Like I have to write about The Black Parade and Danger Days (and the other CD's) and some stuff about each of them, I won't be done this year if I'll keep on like this... I feel kinda bad for listening to MCR, like I'm letting Green Day down, I love them but I never listen to them... And I'm not keeping up with the news either, like I haven't listen to Cigaretts and Valentines 'til now... Sad... They ment so much to me, like that was what kept me alive...

Now things have changed...

Finally everything works all at once, FaceBook, Twitter, Blogger, bdb, YouTube... But my headphones to my iPod, my phone and my computer don't work... Wich is kinda sad, but The phone is old, the headphones are just that free shit you get when you buy the iPod and the computer... urgh... it just hasn't worked propperly ever.

I have to tell you, I want to buy an Australia flag and put it over my bed... It'd be awesome! But strange, like I've never been to Australia and still I love the country so much I'd buy a huge flag... In fact we're maybe going to Australia summer 2012 (before the end of the world...), to Adelaide of all places but that's because Hoopy our Aussie friend's from there and we'll live in their house. I want 2012! But in a way not, that's going to be a strange summer, however my family do, I won't stay in Czech Republic and I have to move to Sweden... Or to Prague, wich would be strange... And it wouldn't work...

So enough depressing stuff... Bye all!

Today with Freja

I started the day with waking up, and then pancakes for breakfast, we don't usually have pancakes for breakfast but they where left overs from yesterday so why not? Hten I went to the Czech school and had English and P.E, as usually I got lost in the building and ended up outside the classroom I was going to just by accident and met the woman who invited me to the school and she comfirmed that I was on the right place.

I love people accepting me for being messy...

And then when I was going from the English class to the P.E I met an old friend from when I went swimming, she got really suprised, I see why, I haven't told her... Stupid me! On the P.E I'm not sure what we did, I didn't do so much at least...

Then it was time for me to get back to my own school, I started to walk to the bus stop and just as I arrived the bus that I had planned to take left, so I had to walk, wich took about 30 minutes but it was a really nice walk, I didn't take the fastest route, I didn't want to take the fastest route either. I enjoy walking and I have to admit, I was on a place I had never been to, wich was cool.

I wasn't lost I promise.

So I went back to my school and the day dragged itself to 1:30pm and then I, Embla and Jess were suposed to do some inlines but the weather had other plans and we ended up watching Little Miss Sunshine, it's a great movie about just how weird the world is... I love the movie, it's one of my favorites and it's impossible to forget about it.

I just checked out hcpce.cz and noticet THAT PARDUBICE AIN'T GONNA MEET TRINEC!! I'm so freaking happy, meeting Trinec wouldn't be so good, but Vitkovite isn't to play with either but still they feel more like a semi-team this year (even though it was a final-team last year...), I'm still not sure about what Pardubice feels like, during some periods of this season I didn't feel like they'd make it to the play-offs...

I've been thinking about where to get all the non album songs by MCR, I've fallen in love with Kill All your Friends right now... Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba... (in fact I've only got My Way Home Is Through You on my iPod as a non album song...) I think I can probably buy them through iTunes, but then I need an acount, wich my dad has got but it doesn't work for some reason... Hopefully maybe some of my friends have downloaded some of the songs...

I think that's pretty much it, I was suposed to go to the footballtraining today but I didn't go because of the weather, well that's not the true reason you see I love ruinning around in the rain but I didn't want to... I never want to but I feel good afterwards.

Bye all!