Wasted Thursday

No touch-rugby, no photographing, none of my plans went true. That's pretty depressing, however I did some work with my bridge, yes I'm biulding a bridge. It's something for my Technology, I sort of enjoy it, but right now, it looks more like a bench than a bridge, but it's a work in progress, we'll see how it ends. I'll probably paint it in gold and call it Eldorado. Like why not?

So now I'm trying to wite down all the things I've done and this stupid Word-documemt is unable to work together with me. I'll kill it, sooner or later and the rewrite it all. I haven't wrote so much yet but it would be nice if just something worked for once.

And that, my dear monsters, is how a good life is thrown away

Urgh, I feel like doing something before the rugby, like go to the city or something. Taking some summery photos. I've always got these great plans, it's a pity they never come true. Of course today when I feel like spending the afternoon with someone I forgot my phone at home. Stupid, stupid me. I'm not even sure about where I've put it, maybe under the table.

Always under the table.

I think I've gone Twitter-mad, like I write too much there. Way too much. I also read through Frankies all tweets, from 2008 'til now. Haha, no not really, I just checked the maddest ones and the photos. Hehe.

I don't understand the listing thing yet, though... I have to figure it out, appearently I got listed, twice, by someone... hmm...

I have to find somewhere to get real updates from the Swedish hockey, I'm like really excited now, my team is in the finale and so on... I have to watch the finales, or I'll kill myself. I wish I had some to share my thought about the Swedish hockey with, my friends don't care, you gals probably don't care neither, my father support another team that's in the lower legue an my mum just doesn't know about how to talk hockey with me. I've never ever cared about the Swedish hockey before neither but now, I've actually started to enjoy it and I've bagan to care as well.

Have I ever told you about my summers, how I spend them?

I spend them at my granparenst place just by the big lake Vänern, I've got my cousins there and a lot of friends. I guess even if the place is small, there's such a bounch of random people there. Gash, I love them!

Back to the topic, we often go out with out boat to some island out on the lake and swim and sun bathing, it's always cold in the water, but, you know, I'm used to it. Often we meet our friend out on the islands to have a barbie, I love it, I wish I could invite the whole world to come and enjoy the Swedish lake-life. But I guess it would be so many people out there, it's not everywhere in the world you can get an island on your own.

I've always loved to swim and so, it's a part of who I am. Who I always will be. Living without water is like living without air for me. That's the hardest part about Czech Republic. But as Swedes, we can sniff ourselves to the water and Jess's mum found this beautiful lake when she worked here. All blue and fresh and deep, really deep.

I'll tell you more about myself some other time.

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

"...hockey-arena-filling chorus of Na, Na, Na, Na, Na, Nas"

Hey everyone!

I love the sun and the warm weather. Everything is so alive. I have to tell you, I love every kind of weather in a way. Snow because... it's snow, alright. Rain because everything becomes so clean, especially the air. Cloudy because sometimes it just feel good. Sun because everything wakes up. But it has to be a lot of everything, a lot of snow, a lot of sun, a lot of rain or else it gets boring.

I went by the Cez Arena yesterday and it was this strange bus from Liberec there... How do I know it was from Liberec, well it said Hockey Liberec all over it, and that's what I find strange, like the season's over. What were they doing there? Hmmm... I should have gone over there and asked, or at least checked. Sneaking around just like a spy. Tum-tum-tum, tum-tum-tum... I remember when we were in Egypt last year and me and my cousin were sneaking around like spys, thank God noone saw us (or so we thought . . .). Oh, good memories. Banana plants all over the place. (haha, bananananananananananananas)

I wish you'd be able to understand at least the half of what I'm talking about but, it's pretty hard to explain, like the feeling of being a fish. Have you ever felt like a fish, I often do.

This is it folks!

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

Toothpaste on my lips

Ciao!

It's pretty interesting when I get a FaceBook message from an old classmate from Sweden, it was like a year since I spoke to her, the time is going so fast nowadays. Like running...

Soon it will be easter and we'll be off to Spain for a week, that will be great, I've never been there before, even though dad has got a friend living there. (he has got a friend on Isle of Man as well, I've never been there neither)

Today I think I'm going for the touch-rugby, it has been forevern since last time.

When I got that message from my old classmate, I thought back and thought about how much I've changed the last years. Especially my way of thinking, I've always tried to be like everyone else, now I just do whatever I want and don't give a shit about what the people around think of me. I like whatever I want and feel whatever I want. If ti would have been two years ago, I wouldn't have been able to say that I love hockey without getting so much shit for it.

I'm not even sure if my real friends have accepted that I love hockey. (haha as I wrote thid I was going to write, 'like hockey' but then a decided, no wait 'love hockey' but it already stood love... Weird)

Now I'm going to keep writing my article about My Chemical Romance, see ya!

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

The Czech world confuses me

Okay, so taoday was an orderanary Wednesday, directly after school we went out skating along the river, it's great, I love it! Than I got home, for like ten minutes and then off to the football training. It was great to able to move my body again without having trouble with breathing. Great! I often say that I hate going to the football training, I do, I hate when I go there, like before the training, but then I love it. I just have to get some skills too.

I could use some updates, like a new good t-shirt that doesn't smell like shit after the first time I use it, a new pair of shorts, summertime I need to get some brown legs, and maybe new football shoes, mine are not that old but I want those green ones, like my sister!

I've started to read Across the Barricades, it's about Catholics and Protestans in Ireland. Oh great, now you think it's really boring but it's not. I like it, and it's a great story! Even though I've only read like 25 pages... I love reading in English! Even though it's a pretty Irish written book... I have to get some Aussie books! Sometime. Just don't know any... - Yet!

I'm thinking about learning Czech for real now, since we'll probably stay longer than expected.

This is it for now! Sometimes I feel like I write blogposts like if the whole world read my blog, I've got two followers, wich I'm pretty proud of, when I started blogging, I didn't even care if anyone read my posts, wich I don't do now neither but I think it's nice every time I get a comment. Haha, I always find something more to write about!

Bye!

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not

The "rise and fall" line in Welcome To The Black Parade - love.

I'm feeling like a zombie, I went to bed too late and I'm starting to think that Swedish is the most boring subject i school (well, except Maths). I often think that Swedish hasn't got any grammar, maybe because I'm so used to use it all the time, but when I have to write, nothing works. It's kinda weird how a language that I use every dy can be so hard. Sometimes I forget how to spell Saturday (in Swedish).

And I'm suposed to be Swedish, nah, don't think so.

Someday I'll think of home when I think of Australia.

I want a kangaroo as a pet.

This is it from me for now... So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Bye!

Keep running

COOKIES

Hey folks!

I just made some cookies, in Swedish they're called "drömmar" wich is dreams. I did take some photos of them but I'm afraid that if I try to get them into my computer the whole thing will die. But I found some Google pics that show how they're suposed to look.

I don't feel s proud any more, lol.

But they are tasty! It's a pity I can't share tastes on here.

I feel like a real chef when I'm in the kitchen, noone is allowed to be near me and only if they're quiet and unnoticeable. I have to tell you, I often watch Masterchef but only the Brittish and the Aussie ones. I like the Aussie one the most, the Brittish one is so... Brittish? No but the Aussie one is so much nicer, it's a pity I didn't see who won. I saw like every episode except the finale... I personally loved Po (if that was her name) and Sammy, it was a pity none of them won.

I hope there will be another season and it will be on Swedish TV.

I feel like I'm such a split person, I love food shows and cooking, I love alternative rock and I want to be like Frank, I love hockey even though my friends hate it, I don't mind draw something now and then even though I'm out of insperation for the moment, I love Australia wich doesn't quite go together with the hockey, lol, I love photagraphing even though I'm a useless phoagrapher... Hmm I think that's me.

This will be it for today I hope!

Bye!

Keep running!

The header...

...is extreamly ugly. I tried my best but it didn't work, as you can see... I'll fix something better as soon as I've got something to come up with. I just don't know for sure what I want.

I'm sorry, this is it for me.

Bye all!

Keep running!

The anthem won't explain it

I'm so mad at myself, and at my family. I wanted to go to the city! I just wanted to get home first and get the camera, but no. Hmm... Now I'm going to fix the freaking header! I think I'll have some WANTED-Killjoys-Me-theme, I just feel it's gonna be great :)

Bye!

Keep running!

I sort of enjoy the fact that I'm misunderstood most of the time. That's fine.

I need to fix a header to the blog, like how interesting is it to just have the words? Not very much, indeed.

I'm planning to take a trip to the city today and take some photos, maybe I'll find something interesting. It will be rather boring to be alone, I could send some invetations but I forgot my phone at home. Stupid me, now when I've got the newer one I forget it... Why is that so typical me..?

Yesterday I got the FRIDA-magazine, I don't read so much in it but it's nice to know what going one, even though they don't write so much about the people I want to read about... But it's nice to have something Swedish to read. That reminds me about that I have to buy some new books when I go to Sweden next time (wich will be this summer). During some periods in my life all I do is reading, I love those times, I'm really in my own world.

About being in my own world I didn't dream anything tonight, hah, first time in five days. sometimes I feel like it's only in my dreams I live my life. Sick feeling.

I hate it when I look at the clock for the first time and it's only 8:15. That means it's long time 'til the lesson ends and I'm doing the wrong stuff. I shouldn't be writing during the lessons. Lucky me, my teacher doesn't know about it.

I really feel like having a barbie today (No not the doll, a BBQ). It was so long time ago and it should be time soon. Even though my family had this tradition in Sweden to not have a barbie before the 30th of April, that just doesn't work here in Czech Republic. It's warmer and earlier.

By the way - 30th of April is a date that means pretty much to me, it's Valborg (Valborgsmessoafton), and that has got some historical meaning but I don't care, it's also the day of the year when we for the first time of the year take our bikes, go to some friedns to the family and no matter the weather we have a barbie together. And I mean NO MATTER THE WEATHER.

So this is it from me for now!

Keep running!

WHO knew these SIX things about who6?

Every week I randomly pick something to make a list of six about...

Songs that mean something to me:

1. My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted

First of all, it's a great song, and the lyrics are so true "If I'm so wrong, how can you listen all night long?"

2. Green Day - Holiday

It's my rebellious me.

3. Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody

There's someone out there for evveryone of you, even me.

4. My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words

"I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone" I'll keep on, even if I'll have to do it on my own.

5. One Republic - Apolegize

It was so popular and I remember dancing together with a boy I liked, who dumped me later, but still I brings me back.

6. Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Oh my, every time I hear this I want to cry! It just brings be back to Sweden, sitting there in our car watching the houses go by, it felt more like a funeral than a good bye. Like it'd be the last time I saw that place...

As you know, I love GD and MCR I tried not to only have them on the list. I guess there's noone in this world that hasn't got a Nickelback song that means something...

So I think that's it

Bye all!

When you think you're immortal, the way down is too long to climb, you fall or you stay, I falled.

I've been so stupid thinking everything is perfect and everything will go right, I was wrong.

So today has been good, better than I thought it would be. Susanne basicaly told me to stop being sad about the boys losing. I deserved it. MCR has released their Killjoys jackets, but they're only available in the US, I hope they'll come to EU. I NEED ONE! I'm just not sure about who's I'm gonna have. Ray's is the coolest one, no doubt, but you see Frankie is my wife. And the Way brothers jackets are also really cool. I wish I could buy them all!

I WANT THEM ALL!

I started to sew on my skirt today. It's inpsired from the fifties and it's black with wite spots. Maybe some green details.

I'm really restless and I don't know what to do. I was going to take the bus but my mum said "NO WAY YOU'RE NOT LEAVING THIS HOUSE, YOU'RE ILL!", I'm not that ill, I'm just not well enough to go to the football training. Tomorrow I'm allowed to go out, I have to, or I'll die. Seriously.

I dreamed tonight ("OH NO, WILL SHE EVER STOP TELLIN ABOUT HER DREAMS" you think, and no I won't) about I was on a boat, together with some friend and, there was this really annoying guy that I beated. It felt pretty good, all though I think he died... And then we played some game, we were locked up in a room and the only thing we had was a computer to play The Sims on and a bed.

And then I woke up.

I think that's it.

Bye all!

The feeling of being unable to breath.

There are not many grown up men in this world that can make me cry like a baby. When the guys lost, a big part of me died. I didn't burst right away, first I couldn't belive it, but then later when I tried to fall asleep it all came clear to me.

Fuck it.

Stupid Vitkovice.

I just didn't see that coming. After those two goals in a row I did not see that coming!

It will be forever 'till I go to Cez arena again. It will be forever 'till I see the guys again. And it will be forever again 'till I'll feel that happiness and love I only feel when I'm there. This is going to be a depressing summer. Shit, I hate this hopeless feeling!

And there's nothing I can do about it.

The guys truly deserved to win. They were the better team, still are, will always be.

...

Hey all!

I'm here, with a rat trying to escape from all the time and the same time I'm trying to find out a name to my future turtle. I want Frank and Sydney, but Embla won't agree and she knows that I'll get bored and she'll get them after a while. Maybe I'm not ready for a turtle yet. I've taken over Embla's computer, she hates me.

I'm really nervous about tonight. I need to get together and calm down, this isn't a losing day! We've beaten them before, we can do it again, three wins in a row, I don't care what the odds are, it's gonna happen! I will cry till the next season if they lose (BUT THEY'LL NOT!) Pardubice is the better team, and that won't change during two nights. WHY AM I SO NERVOUS? I shouldn't be.

I have to stop dreaming about the hockey! (All though it's pretty good)

This night was the second night I dreamed about the hockey/the guys. Tonight I dreamed anout some outside rink and I was there together with some of my Czech friends. We went out on the ice (with our shoes, I don't know why we didn't skate...) and met some guys from HC Pardubice, and then I had a black-out, and then we were standing next to the ice and I got abig wet kiss from one of the guys... hahaha, dreams, he was a good kisser though...

I bet you've heard enough about my dreams, I wish I had something more to say but I haven't, I'm not well enough to do anything funny and I'm well enough to get bored. I guess that tomorrow will be better. I really feel like walking around in the city and taking some photos (talking about walking, I think that Walker is a pretty nice surname...). Now I'll just chill out and then watch The Big C, I think that's one of the best series this year. Even though it's pretty sad I find it so adorable!

It's sad to tell you gals, but this is it for me today!

Bye!

Friends

I have to tell you I feel like I've got the weirdest, funniest, craziest, most adorable friends in thewhole wide world! They're always thare for me! I hate that I'm not the same to them. I wonder if there's anyone more random than one guy, he's my mother, you see... And Ida my brother(sister) from an other mother... Haha, I can't help laughing when I think I think about "fisken"! There are so many amazing people that I'd like to thank for being so wonderful!

I just don't know how.

This ain't no party, get of the dancefloor!

With mints being my life line I'm pretty unhappy... I did something I shouldn't have done: When everything was as worst I took one shot with my inhale asthma medication wich I know I should only use when I get really bad. I have to tell you, I'm glad I did it but only because I did I'm afraidthat it will happen again, and then I might get addicted and that's a problem!

I have to stop doing this, or I have to stop getting ill.

It's one way or another. (Are we talking about the Way brothers...? 'cause than I'm fine with both, lol)

I have to tell you, I had this strangest dream this night. It was about the hockey-guys and their cars, I don't remeber so much but in the end Koukal was giving me and Embla a ride home after the game, it all was kinda funny since I know he doesn't speak English and neither I or Embla speak Czech...

Oh my... It was one of the funniest, saddest and craziest dreams I ever dreamed.

Sometimes I feel like I dream too much about the hockey, but why not, it's a huge part of my life, why not be a huge part of my dreams?

I don't know how to say this but no, I'm not going to say it at all. There's thing thing that needs to be said, a secret that needs to be shared but I don't know who... My best friend wouldn't understand and she's got too much to deal with herself (her plans of taking over the world together with me! )

It feels better now when I've revealed that I at least have got a secret... Great! :)

Bye all!

I'm so sad (T.G.I.F)

Oh no, this wasn't planned. The guys weren't suposed to lose! It all felt pretty good in the beginning, and then it all went downhill, well in fact, no, because Pardubice is the better team, the only thing is that they can't score... (wich is what it's all about)

It's a hell of a big hill to climb now. Three wins in a row, that (ain't) gonna happen!

Urgh, I was so sad (and I still am but I'm starting to melt it now) when the guys lost. I almost wanted to cry and do like Koukal, just destroy something. It wasn't fair.

Urgh, then I relived it all in my dreams during the night. The last goal, the broken stick, the sad and angry faces. Everything.

My life is all messed up. I have got a small headache and I'm still pretty sad. The cold isn't over yet, it has come to that state when I just cough all the time, if I'm lucky it'll be oven on Sunday, if I'm unlucky it'll last for two weeks... I didn't sleep so much this night, since I woke up at 4:10 and didn't really fall asleep again till like an hour later, and then it was pretty much time to get up. (At least in the matter of an hour...)

Thank God It's Friday! This has been one of the longest weeks in my life. Today, dad will come home and were going to be rat-watchers for Tomas's rat, hmm, it's going to be interesting. I'm trying to learn the whole lyrics to Planetary (GO!), I don't know why but it's a great song and it has got a long text with a cool meaning (in fact I think is my subcontiousness telling me to think about something else than the game and the guys).

I think that's it from me today, or at least for now. I'll be back, you know it!

Bye all!

Ths stupid feeling of todays game being the last game at home this year...

Yes, I'm in school today, I don't know if I'm well enough but I had to, or my sister would die of jealousy and I wouldn't go to the hockey, so here I am, eating HALLS (reminding myself that I have to buy some more later) and blowing my nose every second minute. My nose is red and hurts when I touch it and I can't think as clear as I want to...

Who said that life's fair?

I'm freaking out about onights game. You know I do my Maths and I counted out that this might be the last game at home this year... Stupid thoughts. Stupid, stupid thoughts. I have to stay positive, you know, keep up the spark and the hope.

This hopeless feeling, this fear of fallinging down, but I'm not crashing now

[Safe and Sound]

So I'm heading for another packet of HALLS now, lol.

Bye all!

No School=No Hockey

I didn't go to school today, first of all I'm ill, second of all, I didn't sleep anything tonight. So now because of that I didn't go to school it means that I'm not well enought to go to the hockey (according to my mum...). I'll watch TV tongith, urgh, it's just not the same. No athmosphare, no loud sounds, no fan club, just me and the hockey... I hate it, nobody to share my thoughts with, nothing... If I would have had my ticket I'd be on the bus right now, but mum has got the tickets...

She just doesn't understand that I can get well during a day...

I'll be there tomrrow, you'll see...

I'm pretty depressed about this, I was looking forward for it so bad and now, I'm watching it from home, I went from being there to a small TV... I hate this. If the boys win I'll be really sad for not being there...

Urgh, she doesn't understand how much this means to me.

I almost want to cry...

And Freja goes like: ATCHO!

I'm ill, I'm defently ill. The only thing that helps is tea, and I don't even like tea. I just think it tastes like hay and I'm not a horse. My mouth is hurting and my eye is red.

I hate this. I hate everything!

The thing is, when I get ill, I never get ill enough staying home from school but ill enough to give me hell.

So today I went to school, of course, and then when I got home we watched a movie, Elizabeth: The Golden Age, I have to tell you I love these movies about old English kings and queens, I just wish I knew more about it all. I'd love to study it sometime, in the future... You must think I'm stupid.

I'm not going to the Czech school tomorrow, because I feel like there's no point going there for just one lesson when I've got so much to do with my own school...

My feelings are like this wall, just colours without any reason...

I'm not sure what more to say, I'm still waiting for contact with outer space... Oh my, I want Wednesday so bad.

My heart is exploding

This day hasn't gone pretty far and I've still done so much and felt so many feelings... I just joined MCRmy and I have eaten cottage cheese(I love cottage cheese, but I sort of like the Swedish word more, 'keso').

I'm waiting for Wednesday to come, somehow I think time is moving so slowly during the play-off...

WEDNESDAYTHURSDAYWEDNESDAYTHUR

SDAYWEDNESDAYTHURSDAYWEDNESDAY

THURSDAYWEDNESDAYTHURSDAYWEDNE

SDAYTHURSDAYWEDNESDAYTHURSDAYW

EDNESDAYTHURSDAYWEDNESDAYTHURS

DAYWEDNESDAYTHURSDAYWEDNESDAYT

HURSDAYWEDNESDAYTHURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

And then I want Friday. I've felt a lot of lonlyness today, it Tuesday, I usually love Tuesdays because it the day I have nothing to do, but, today I actually have nothing to do and it'll be so boring... I have tofigure something out.

I've also felt hope, and fear (I slipped in the staircase, heh), pain and happiness, just everything and it's not even afternoon yet...

I'll write later!

Bye all!

WHO knew these SIX things about who6?

Every week I randomly pick something to make a list of six about...

Six things I miss:

1. My Swedish friends, first of all.
2. Swimming, it was my life, my dream, my everything
3. The water, I lived next to the biggest lake in Sweden, and Europe (excl. Russia)
4. Sleepover paries! I'd do anything for a huge sleepover party!
5. Being in love, as I just said...
6. Singing, I used to sing, like, alot, and nowadays I sing but it doesn't sound so great, hehe...

I want to fall in love

I've always had a problem with falling in love too easy, but nowadays I haven't found anyone good enough. I miss the feeling when I meet the one, and I miss the feeling being close to someone I love. I've never had a boyfreind but I sure know what it's like to be in love. It makes it so much easier to get up in the morning thinking "Today I'm gonna meet him"...

The only bad thing is getting so hurt all the time.

Guys don't seem to like me, at least not as a girlfriend, more like frind, wich is good, but not great...

The smell of tears and wet mascara

I don't feel very well today, I think that I've got some sort of cold, just a small one before the real, heavy one begins. I hate the fact that I know how my body will react on a cold. My nose is just being stupid to me and I forgot all my napkins at home. I'm also really tierd, I went to bed at 22:30 but I didn't fall asleep until 0:30-1:00. So I can't concentrate, I can't read and my head's a mess. I can hardly write this. I don't know how I will survive this day, you know it's Monday, football and all.

Yesterdays eve was a mess, I was really happy, got home and did some homework (last minute...) and then I spent some time at FaceBook/Twitter/Blogger and then my dad got mad at me because it was late and I should go to bed, then we faught about everything and I went to bed crying. I've finally got a proof that I get black stripes down my cheek when I cry with my mascara on...

It's funny how my mood can go from ecstasy to suicide-thought (maybe not that bad...) in the matter of ten-fiteen minutes. In fact, it's so much easier to get back to great again nowadays, I don't know why but my personality has become so much more optimistic.

I've told my parents that I've quit blogging, and as you know, I haven't, but they actually read my blog and now I feel much better about blogging when they don't know, like it's my little diary, who wants their parents to read their diary?

I guess if they looked around they'd find it but not right away so I guess they won't...

I guess that's it. My biggest wish right now would be to throw up and get really ill so I could go home and sleep for the rest of the day... That'd be nice...

Bye all!

The feeling of hope

A victory! Yey! I've got back my spark and my hope, I know it's everything but over, well, it's a beginning. mm, and I've finally woker out who I think Spirko looks like; Paul Wesley! Don't mess with me, I like to find out who I think look alike.

Anyway, about today: Yes the swedes came here as I said they would and I'm sorry about the fact I didn't take any photos... So, I've got nothing to share, wich is pretty sad.

Then later we went to Ondra's bar to watch the hockey, and I said, my spark is back and I can sniff some hope coming back to me!

I'm not going to write anything more, I don't feel like it even though I'm pretty happy!

Bye all!

Pop-corn-war in the kitchen, hockey by the computer and cancer

Today me and mum baked semlor, it's like a bun filled with cream and marzipan. Great stuff! It's a Swedish traditiom to eat them on some special day wich I've forgotten but it was in February so we're a little bit late here.

Then I watched the hockey game and because it wasn't sent live I had to tell myself not to check hcpce.cz and look at the results, in the en, I did it five minutes before the end of the game. And, wow, what a suprise, no, seriously no, I just got sad, not suprised over that aweful score. Hopefully the boys will get back and win some game, I'm not so sure about the final this year I have to admit.

And after that I spent some time infron of the computer doing as good as nothing until 9:50pm and that's when The Big C begins, I have to tell you, I love it! It's just so great, so funny and yet so tragic. Cancer is a horrible thing!

I didn't sleep in y room last night, why not? Because my computer is weird and he was loading something all night long (wich I ruined today anyways)... I sort of like that room, and I like the bed most of all, hehe... Where you gonna sleep tonight?

Tomorrow's going to be nice, I'll take lots of photos and hopefully I'll share some of them with you! (Somehow I feel like I show you more photos at this blog, but yet not half the way as I'd like to) You see all the Swedes are coming and we'll have lost of semlor in different wariations. Like rasberries and chocolate, vanilla and the original.

No I'll go to bed, hopefully, and I will not be allowed to sleep longer that till nine, very depressing but true. I've got pop-corn between my teeth... (just sharing my deep thoughts) And me and Embla had pop-corn-war in the kitchen, how about that? We put IKEA-bowls on our headt and throw pop-corn on each other, we're very childish but it's so funny (the best thing is when you hit a flying pop-corn with a spoon)... But guess who had to clean the kitchen? Nevermind bothering...

Bye all! *kissing you all good night*

My computer

So, me and dad are trying to fix the computer, I can tell you, it's going nowhere, we're trying to delete something big, appearently, and it says that it'll take two days and seven hours... When I last checked it yesterday it was two days and seventeen hours (now you can figure out when I went to bed)...

Yesterday we went to Hoopy's place and I don't know we just talked... about everything, the funniest thing was that we all ended up infront of the TV watching VH1 and dad and Hoopy tried to guess who was singing and what song it was. It was kinda funny.

I also had a hard time bout not being in Stockholm yesterday eve. But things aren't always as you want to.

It's Just Like Déjà Vu

There's this guy in the class I'm going to that freaks me out! He looks a little bit like a bloke that I had a very strange but funny relation to. And that's what's freaking me out, how someone that I don't know can remind me about someone and tear my heart to pieces.

I miss that time so bad sometimes, especially times like this.

I remember when we were deskmates and did everything else but the stuff we were suposed to. I said to my friends that I was in love with him but nowadays I think I was wrong, we were more like brothers and sisters. Haha, once when we fought about something he pushed me from my chair and I laid on the chair with my legs and the rest of my body hanging down halfway to the floor. I laghed so hard I almost died. And everyone else thought I had some mental illness. And poor teacher... I've got a feeling of that I'd never ever escape with doing that here in Czech Republis as I got away with it in Sweden. The thing is, when I tell abou this, it all sounds really crazy but if you were me, you'd understand how much these tiny memories mean to me, it's like reading a book again, sometimes it's a bad book, sometimes it's a good book.

I wonder if he remember me...

I wouldn't be suprised if he doesn't...

I don't even think he thought I was funny back then, I just exsisted, and he probably thought I was really annoying.

(I should really talk to him sometime)

Would I be alone and not i school I'd be sitting here laughing and crying at the same time.

(I know, like the oldest photo ever, or what... I'm in school this was the only one. btw Frank's my wife)

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

I'll defently be crying tonight, all my friends, I mean like all my friends are going to Stockholm today and watch MCR. I'm so freaking sad!! And they haven't planned anything in Prague, I guess they won't either... Maybe, with a huge maybe, I'll go and see them in Wien the 27th of June (the day after my birthday) it'd be great, but I don't think I will be allowed to do that, you know, parents, hehe...

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

(Freja, why do you write ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba everywhere? Well, because that's what's on my brain, just sounds, meaningless sounds, and it's a part of Kill All Your Friends wich is my favorite song right now)

This was a really rondom blogpost, hopefully it tells alot about me. Like I'm a very random person, who's gonna watch hockey tomorrow by the way, and I like to share my randomness with you guys!

Bye all!

Cause we all wanna party when the funeral ends...

Im in THAT school and Ive got these czech letters all over the place... so you wont understand a thing... ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba, before I couldns find how to get @ so i had to copy and paste to get here... and y and z are freaking me out... and I cant do smileys either...
Dont mess with me now... Im trying to write french and it just does not work...
Bze all!

JUST SOME

when you think about it, it all makes sense...

I told Susanne that I think Petr Koukal and Elijah Wood look alike, but the more I think about it:

HAHAHAHAHAHA... LMAOSHMSFOAIDMT!

Alright, I'll shut up...

My skype just died, I downloades an upgrade wich I had to have a newer computer for and now I can't back the old one... sad.

We went to the skating preformance. It was really great and I got some good photos that I will show you as soon as my computer works propperly. (wich will never happen...) There's actually a reason to why I didn't get so many good photos... I don't know how to use tha camera as a real photagrapher would do, but then my dad helped me and everything was good.

WHO knew these SIX things about who6?

Every week I'll make a list of six things about just anything, this is about me:

1. Blood freaks me out. Maybe not if I get a small wound but someone elses blood, urgh! It's also the reason to why mosqitoes, leeches, ticks and simular animals scare the shit out of me.

2. I sometimes talk too much and I sometimes talk too little.

3. I don't like my name, I'd like to have some cool known name, like Elin, Jennie or something simular...

4. I'm so stupid when it's about computers, I just know the basics.

5. I start to laugh/cry when I assosiate some stuff with things that have happen. It's one of my biggest promblent (promblem+talent)

6. I don't like Michael Jackson, I have never done, I never will...

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

Hey all!

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba...

I have to stop shit-chatting with people til late every evening. I feel like a zombie today. I will surivive, hopefully!

So today will just be like normal, at least the school because later we'll go to the arena and watch Vendy skate. I'll bring the big camera (I always get happy when I think about using that camera) and take lots of photos and hopefully my computer will work so I can show you some.

I really need to repare my computer, the only thing is that I checked it just two days ago and it wasn't any probmel with it. I think it's better now anyways, because it turn off at least, before when I turned it off (or tried) it just stood there without any changes so I had to turn off the power and just let it die. Urgh, I hate doing that, I feel bad inside when I do that. (It's something mental)

A picture says more than a thousand words...

My dad's back from Sweden now, but I haven't met him yet, I guess he'll show up at the arena later. He went to Stockholm this week, he was in Prague last week and he'll go to Gothenburg next week. I sort of miss him, but I still think is's pretty nice without all the fights all the time.

I've just had Music, I'm writin about My Chemical Romance, this far I'm only at Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge and I've wrote one and a half page... It'll be more... I promise! Like I have to write about The Black Parade and Danger Days (and the other CD's) and some stuff about each of them, I won't be done this year if I'll keep on like this... I feel kinda bad for listening to MCR, like I'm letting Green Day down, I love them but I never listen to them... And I'm not keeping up with the news either, like I haven't listen to Cigaretts and Valentines 'til now... Sad... They ment so much to me, like that was what kept me alive...

Now things have changed...

Finally everything works all at once, FaceBook, Twitter, Blogger, bdb, YouTube... But my headphones to my iPod, my phone and my computer don't work... Wich is kinda sad, but The phone is old, the headphones are just that free shit you get when you buy the iPod and the computer... urgh... it just hasn't worked propperly ever.

I have to tell you, I want to buy an Australia flag and put it over my bed... It'd be awesome! But strange, like I've never been to Australia and still I love the country so much I'd buy a huge flag... In fact we're maybe going to Australia summer 2012 (before the end of the world...), to Adelaide of all places but that's because Hoopy our Aussie friend's from there and we'll live in their house. I want 2012! But in a way not, that's going to be a strange summer, however my family do, I won't stay in Czech Republic and I have to move to Sweden... Or to Prague, wich would be strange... And it wouldn't work...

So enough depressing stuff... Bye all!

Today with Freja

I started the day with waking up, and then pancakes for breakfast, we don't usually have pancakes for breakfast but they where left overs from yesterday so why not? Hten I went to the Czech school and had English and P.E, as usually I got lost in the building and ended up outside the classroom I was going to just by accident and met the woman who invited me to the school and she comfirmed that I was on the right place.

I love people accepting me for being messy...

And then when I was going from the English class to the P.E I met an old friend from when I went swimming, she got really suprised, I see why, I haven't told her... Stupid me! On the P.E I'm not sure what we did, I didn't do so much at least...

Then it was time for me to get back to my own school, I started to walk to the bus stop and just as I arrived the bus that I had planned to take left, so I had to walk, wich took about 30 minutes but it was a really nice walk, I didn't take the fastest route, I didn't want to take the fastest route either. I enjoy walking and I have to admit, I was on a place I had never been to, wich was cool.

I wasn't lost I promise.

So I went back to my school and the day dragged itself to 1:30pm and then I, Embla and Jess were suposed to do some inlines but the weather had other plans and we ended up watching Little Miss Sunshine, it's a great movie about just how weird the world is... I love the movie, it's one of my favorites and it's impossible to forget about it.

I just checked out hcpce.cz and noticet THAT PARDUBICE AIN'T GONNA MEET TRINEC!! I'm so freaking happy, meeting Trinec wouldn't be so good, but Vitkovite isn't to play with either but still they feel more like a semi-team this year (even though it was a final-team last year...), I'm still not sure about what Pardubice feels like, during some periods of this season I didn't feel like they'd make it to the play-offs...

I've been thinking about where to get all the non album songs by MCR, I've fallen in love with Kill All your Friends right now... Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba... (in fact I've only got My Way Home Is Through You on my iPod as a non album song...) I think I can probably buy them through iTunes, but then I need an acount, wich my dad has got but it doesn't work for some reason... Hopefully maybe some of my friends have downloaded some of the songs...

I think that's pretty much it, I was suposed to go to the footballtraining today but I didn't go because of the weather, well that's not the true reason you see I love ruinning around in the rain but I didn't want to... I never want to but I feel good afterwards.

Bye all!

A New Start

I'll run both of the blogs from now, and then I'll see what I feel best with... So my old blog that got really messy you can find here. About who6.blogspot.com who is because I've never, ever been seen and 6 is because I've finally started to accept that my favorite number is 6. (I got bullied in Sweden because six in Swedish is "sex" and everybody thought I was weird, hehe)

I'll fix the design better later, I'll get something that's really meish

I'll also try to write more tabs, it all gets more organised then...

Bye all!