Happiness

There’s something that just happened which I’m quite happy (understatement of the year) about. Well, for about 20 minutes ago my parents bought the flight ticket for Sweden so I’m leaving on Friday. My parents and I have argued so much about this so I’m so happy that I’m actually going. A week with Ida. I can’t be anything else than the happiest person alive.

Bad news.

Ida can’t come to Czech Rep. this autumn so I’ll go to Sweden instead… At least that’s what I’m planning right now. Me and Ida and Sibela. A week together! I can’t wait. October come now!

It’s sad that she couldn’t come to Pardubice though… I’d love to show here around and go to Prague together and check out all the cool stores where I never buy anything because it’s too bloody expensive. Ida needs to come to Pardubice sometime in the future! Or I’ll kidnap her, put her in a bad and bring her here!

I've also began to call Sweden home. o -o

I want winter now.

Here you go!

It has been a long time since I wrote something long and worth reading. I think I will try to change this now. It probably won’t be long, but it will be longer than a 140 character tweet. It already is… And it won’t be worth reading, for sure. Today has been alright I guess. I went to play tennis directly after school together with my sister and Jess. It was okay. I don’t like tennis. There are many reasons why I shouldn’t play tennis:

• I’m useless.
• I think it’s boring.
• I’m too lazy for it.
• I’m too fat.
• I’m too slow.

And here I am at home by my desk writing this with a cup of old cold tea standing next to me… I better clean up this mess.

Today is the last day with only girls at home. Dad will be back from Sweden tomorrow. I wish I was in Sweden now. I kinda like it when he’s away, we don’t always work well together. *cough, cough* If I was in Sweden I’d spend as much time as possible with Ida and Sibela. Though… I think Sibela is slipping away from me. I guess that’s what happens when you live so far from each other. I would not like to go back and have this undone. I would not be the same person if we not would have moved to Czech Republic and I like who I am right now.

I can’t wait for Sunday, I will go to Prague and meet a friend and we will go buy tickets to The Wombats! :D Two Wombats shows in a year. This is definitely my year!

So, here you go! :)

The WOMBATS Lets dance to joy divison OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO

I'm a bad blogger

As you sure notice I haven't blogged in ages. I'm still not sure if I've missed it or not... I'm not hooked up like I was before. Talking about being hooked: I've really gotten into The Wombats lately. I saw them at Rock for People and, yeah, I fell in love. It's not often I hear some music and start dancing like crazy.

This summer has gone so fast and it's soon time to go back to school. (22nd of August, I think) It will be a hell. I really don't want to go back to school. Urgh. I just hope I won't get depressed again.

You see my mentor seem to have taken some sort of roll as my therapist. She says she knows what it's like to be in my age. On the outside I nod and so but on the inside I want to yell at her:

"YOU MIGHT KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE 15 BUT YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ME. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU FUCKING KNOW ME!"

But I don't.

I think that's it. We'll head back to Czech Republic on Sunday. (not tomorrow.)

I wish I could tell you more, but I'm empty.

When life gives you lemos, make some lemonade!

I have spent too much time being banned from the wi-fi lately. This week has been okay. I dyed my hair yesterday and I like the result.

I know I've said on twitter that red hair is mainstream but I like it. I feel comfortable with my red hair and I'll keep it like this for a while. My grandma hates my red hair so it will be funny to hear her reaction. That brings up our next topic:

We're going to Sweden on Thursday and it's going to be a bad month. Living in the same house as my grandparents and my family without any wi-fi and if I want to use that wi-fi I have to go to my cousins' place and they have cats so I get really ill.

I'll try to spend as much time as possible with Ida and Sibela.

This is not the end.

I refuse to believe it's the end. The world of magic will live on in our hearts. For ever.

I'm not going to remove this in a while.

I bought this new MCR t-shirt :')

My Chemical Romance

I had never been to a festival before and I had never seen MCR before. I felt that it was going to be one of the best days of my life, and, yeah it was. I got to Hradec Kralove and met up with my friends (That I had never met the before but what the hell?). The festival hadn't really begun when we got there, well there were soe smaller bands playing, some good, some worse.

Anyways, later the bigger bands started to play and it all began with the John Butler Trio from Australia and oh my God they were good. So skilled.

Then it was time for White Lies and I'm not sure what to think. Did they play the same song over and over again? Because it almost felt like that.

Then The Wombats and where have they been all my life? Seriously? Why didn't I know about them? They were fukken awesome! And the drummer... He was hot.

Then it was time for pretty much what the whole day (and my whole life) was about.

My Chemical Romance

Firts they did Na Na Na and then a generator failed and they had to go off the stage. Dammit! Then they got back up on stage and the audience (inc. me) went crazy! And they did half a song and another generator failed. (like, c'mon -_-)

Then they got out on stage again and did their show.

I must say:

Gerard, I don't understand how he can be so sassy! I love him!

Frank, he looked taller than he actually is. Small guy with big heart and olot of respect. I love him!

Ray, oh my God, his smile, his hair! I love him!

Mikey, awkward knees. I love him!

Pedicone, he's a great drummer! I love him!

Even thought eh people around me pushed me around very much, it was the best day of my life.

All in all: When's the next show in Czech Rep.?

I'm writing a blogpost.

What have I been up to lately? Good question, sometime I wish I didn't have the memory of a gold fish. (3 second memory ftw! -_-) There are some Swedish people in our house. four 13 year olds running around. Yeah, that's ok as long as they stay away from me when I want them to. Tomorrow we'll be off to Prague in the rain... Will be nice, I hope.

On Monday, guess what's happening on Monday.

Pic-spam.

Midsummer - In the middle of summer

In Sweden we've got a silly tradition to have a party in the middle of the summer. In Sweden we count the Friday around the 24th of June as midsummer because a long time ago that was the longest day of the year.

Anyway, nowadays midsummer means something else, I almost think it's an excuse to get really pissed and party. However this is a tradition in the whole country and as the Swede that I am, it's a part of the summer and I just can't miss it!

I met olot of nice people yesterday and made a new friend.

Today, I'm gong to go to CEZ Arena and watch the bronze game between Sweden and Canada, and then later I'm going to watch USA vs. Czech Republic.

Go Sweden!

Go Czech Republic!

I keep what I promise (Sweden and etc)

What I'll try to do is to write down these two weeks without forgetting anything. We'll see how that works out...

Oh well, here we go:

It was Wednesday the 8th of June and we started off our traveling day with taking the buss to the train station. And I'm going to leave it there because hearing about the story containing bus, train, bus, flight, bus, train, car isn't that much fun. So we move on an skip some days of meeting family and stuff.

On Friday I took the buss to Vänersborg, which is my hometown even though I'm having a hard time calling it home these days. You see I never live there. Well, except when I visit people but I don't live there. Anyways, I met Ida, she's my everything and my best friend. (But I have on more everything and best friend, I'll write about her later...) The first thing we did was to walk around the town and meet up with Shannon (her friend) and Hannes (another of her friends who I have met through FaceBook) and Shannon was going to the hairdresser to get her ears pierced. Then we headed home to Ida. We talked for about a week.

In fact that's pretty much all that happened. We talked and just spent time as friends do. That's what makes everything perfect. We can be away from each other for a while and then just catch up where we left. I followed her to school and it was great, I love her class but it also made mea realise what I don't have.

To my other everything: Sibela. We met her one day and she was just the same like she's always been. Talkative and laughative (if that's not a word... well it is now... ). Oh I love her!

After that intensive week of being us I took the bus back to my grandparents' house.

And yeah, I almost think that's it. To be honest I haven't done much at all.

Well yes, one more thing, we went to visit some friends of the family and they've got kids in my and Embla's age (Well Oscar is one year older than me but Elvira is the same age as Embla).

Oscar played some boring farmer game. It was basically FarmVille but in another way. And then Embla and Elvira watched some movie and I and Oscar watched Grown Ups. It was a great movie! We watched it in his room and laid there on his bed and since I had a crush on hime a year ago I felt that coming back a little, but it's over now. I'm free again, lol.

Ok, I'm not going to write more, I'm kinda tired of writing. So I'll leave it like this.

Bye!

New things...

I don't know when I did my last post but it has been a while. You might have noticed the new URL. That's one of the new things. The second new thing is my computer. I got a MacBookPro for my birthday. It's not my birthday yet but it's like an early present. (My birthday's the 26th of June)

I've spent the last week at Ida's place. We had a great time. I'll write about that later.

I'm feeling really good, except the fact that I have a huge allergic reaction because I spend too much time at my cousins' house. But y'know, I'd die for wi-fi and xbox so it's totally worth it. I'm just a little bit worried about that some day my body will just say "that's too much" and I will get really ill.

I've also downloaded skype to my new computer so I can finally video-chat with people again! I've also noticed that this computer checks my English spelling. It's better than I thought, lol.

As I visited Ida I joined her in school, it was nice and so but it also made me realise what I'm missing.

Anyways, I'll write more soon. I promise! and then I'll write more about I've been up to and so on...

My feelings are more important than yours (2)

mum bought me this lovely scarf :)

I have to tell you that I've defenitely not been into the blogosphere lately. I can't tell you I've been busy, because I haven't... Not more than normal. I've got three more days of school next week and then it's time for holidays. There's really nothing to tell, my life has only been about finishing the last pieces of schoolwork and relaxing. I've been spending some time drawing though...

Ever since I was little I've enjoyed drawing. I think I'm finally getting into it again. Someday, when I find my old sketchbooks from fourth grade, I'll show you what I used to do.

My feelings are more important than yours

Things are back to normal. But what is 'normal'

I press create a new post and the I'm not really sure what to write. I've had a lot of things to do and I haven't really wanted to write it down.

Firts of all: Coke makes me sick. From now, I'm only gonna drink Pepsi! and yes, there is a huge differance! Pepsi is first of all much taster and doesn't make me feel sick.

Yesterday I had a parents meeting in school. I'm not gonna tell you so much about it except that I hate it so much I'd rather die than go to another one! Why do I have to go through this two times a year!? Seriously!?

I drawed Frank. No, I'm not going to post the pic here... It has been all over my social networks and it's impossible to miss it. And it doesn't even look like Frank! No wonder noone like it on FaceBook.

I've realized how useless I am in English. I hate the fact that I'm not from an English speaking country. I haven't even been in one! (LIES! I've been to the US twice.) I also called my mum a carrot.

I'm getting used to Twitter now. I've been totally additicted for one and a half month and I don't see how I could survive without it before.

I've just found an old memorycard with photos from last summer and I'm pretty much in ecstasy because it brings back some great memories. Maybe I should make a post with only photos from last summer :') *tears of joy* I miss my Ida so much! *cries*

That has to be it folks!

If you could choose who you want to be, would you choose yoursefl?

Hi everybody!

I've been away for a while. Blogger hasn't been working for me in a couple of days. The latest couple of days have been good and so has the weekend. Sunday evening was the only time I was feeling really bad. I'm not quite sure what to say... so here's a small list of what I've been up to these days:

• I've finally bought the ticket to Rock for People. I'm going there with Lada. a person on facebook told me she wasn't going because Czech people think MCR is emo and are going to throw tomatoes and eggs on them... If someone does I'll smahs their faces! Trust me!
• I've been out on a bike trip around Pardubice. It was nice.
• I didn't play touch rugby last weekend, wich was pretty sad. Noone showed up!
• It's snowing white stuff from the trees that makes me sneeze.
• I change the name and the URL to the blog, you might have noticed... I'm who6 again.
• I'm Freja again. After that Dylan said he love my name I couldn't help liking it too. lol. And I am the godess of love accoring to the Nordic Mythology!
• I fell off the chair three times last night when I was talking to Pixie and Ali. Are they funny or are they funny?

I think that's pretty much it. I'm have to get back in the blogosphere soon again.

Not today thoguh...

Bye!

The newer me

I'm alright with this. Alright... nah, I pretty much L-O-V-E it! :D

A little bit of yesterday...

Yesterday was one of the most random days in my life, nothing seemed to go as planned...

I ended 45 minutes earlier because... I'm not quite sure... I stayed in town because I was going to the hairdresser at 3:30pm. I went to McDonalds because I had to ahve something to eat or I'd die and I got a hamburger (I hate McDonalds ><) and blah, blah. They give away free mugs over there! Then I still had some time over until I was going to the hairdresser so I walked really slow but I'm a little bit weird so I speed up without knowing it. So I walked around the block a couple of times before I went into the hairdresser (10 minutes before the time I had booked ><) but she was alright with that and I said what colour I wanted (Well I didn't say "sassy, Gerard Way red" but I told her I wanted it really red) but she didn't have the colour I wanted so I got some less intensive red colour. But I went like "What the hell...?" and she dyed darker red, wich I'm pretty pleased with but then she styled it really weird so I looked like someone from the seventies. (asdfghjklWTF?!?!?!) Then when I was done I walked to the busstation and waited for the next no12 and I jumped on it and enjoyed the ride. Not very much. I almost fell over three times in the corners. lol. As the bus got to Cerna za Bory it didn't want to go any longer and I had to get off. From Cerna za Bory it's a 2 km walk to my village. Nice. So, still looking like someone from the eventies I walked home. With my earphones plugged in and Kill All Your Friend on replay I walked... And got home. Finally! I thought and found my mum and my sister in the garden, sitting in the sun eating chocolate... What a family I've got, huh? Then I "studied" for a while... Which was horribly boring so I did as always and spent the evening on Twitter.

Later on the eveing Seden faced Germany in the quarter final and I watched it. But only the first two periods I had to go to bed. I found out next moring that Sweden had won with 5:2. I want to belive in the Swedish boys this year. If they'd claim the gold medal I'll cry! but first they'll have to face Czech Republic. Oh no, now my personality will get split again. As it does every single time Sweden faces Czech Republic. I'd get really happy if the Czechs would win this year again too but I belive in the Swedes this year and I want them to win more. (I know that Ida has stopped reading now... heh xD)

I've told you that music is my drug, but now I've got a new drug-dealer. Lol, Ida, I love all the songs you sent me! I'll soon be needing more *evilface*

I slow did a huge misstake the last day and promised Robin that I'd let him dye my hair brown >< (fanfanfanfanfanfanfan I don't look good in brown hair) lol, but I gues I'll have to keep my promises to him. I broke one of them two days ago.

I look weird nowadays. Fact. ;)

I'll talk to you later...

I've got some bad habbits

I put on some make-up...

Today was great, I got home happy and mum had made some good food and I was really happy and so on... I went up to the computer and found an e-mail from my friend filled with goodies and as I sat here trying to study, I put on some make-up beacue I was bored and then Frank tweeted (and my whole timeline gets raped, lol) and somehow when I read the name Frank Iero I began to cry, still not sure why. I feel really empty right now and I did something I've told myself that I'd never ever do again. It's just that I can controll the physical pain but not the mental pain. Hope that my mum won't notice and I'll have to wear long sleeves tomorrow.

Things are under controll, I know that you'll think I'm really fucked up but I promise it won't happen again! Oh, and how are you gonna know I'll keep that promise, well, I'm not sure I will though.

I hope noone will find this and go like "You fucking emo" fisrt of all emo is a lable and lables are for soup cans and second of all: This blog is my diary, I write what I want.

Please don't hate me!

Alright.

Tomorrow I will be off to the hairdresser and dye it red and cut it off. (I shouldn't be using the word cut.)

It will be the mistake of my life or the best thing I've ever done.

Here I go again.

I know I said I'd take away the blog, but during that moment I was pretty depressed and now I've decided that there'se no idea, I'd create another one directly anyway... It's a pity I can never be just fine with something, always going like 'bye this, bye that' hmpf.

I'm heading for the hair-dresser on Wednesday... I'm gonna have it SASSY RED and a bit shorter, I think I'll look good. It will be the mistake of my life or the best thing I've ever done.

I'm back in Pardubice after a week in Cesky Krumlov, sure it was a nice town but I seriously think I've seen one castle too many. In Cesky Krumlov we met a friend of my dad and it was pretty funny when he went like:

"Where did you study English"

And I went like: "In school, like everyone else... Why?"

"Because you've got a American accent"

And if someone says I've got an American accent I die. That's the worst thing that can happen. I was freaking out, trying to put on my British accent (because my Aussie one is not good enough yet) but it only got worse. So in the end I just shut up. I wasn't worth taking if I can't speak propperly. Uhm.

Right now, I'm trying to get myself together, I'm sitting in my pyjamas and it's 7:40pm, what's wrong with me...? and I'm not planning to do anything about it either. lol. Urgh another of these horrible blog-posts of mine, I'm sorry.

Urgh, the evening just got worse, I need to talk with someone...

Bye

₪ ø lll ·o.

I just...

The advantage of being a depressed opitmist (Spain)

Now, you're gonna watch some photos, and just some of those I took in Spain.

great start with me and sis, right? ;)

I want one of those, so bad.

Madrid

So, I seriously don't feel like doing anything more today with this, I guess it will be a Spain part 2 comming up...

New header.

Finally something I'm pleased with, I'm actaully fine with it for once.

I'm a little bit too busy to write more.

A blogpost

Life has been very fucked up the latest couple of days. Things have turned up-side-down in the matter of minutes and so has my mood. I've been tierd of people I love, I've said things I shouldn't say and I've learned things that are good for me. The week has gone so fast I can't belive it's Saturday eve and I don't think the time will go any slower now when I have got so much to do in school. My computer hasn't been working since Friday afternoon, I've been on my iPod wich isn't very funny. Imagine a small screen with the slowest internet ever. Not very funny indeed. And now 99% of all my My Chemical Romance pics are gone.

I've got some good news though. I am going to Rock for People without my family. To some that might not sound very good but to me it's the greatest news ever. So, I'm going with Lada, a girl I don't really know outside Facebook/Twitter but it'll be great to meet her! Oh that's pretty much what keeps me going nowadays, the thought of a MCR concert... I've already decided what I'll wear and what make up I'll have... I think I'll have Frank's X-make up... ;) cool, indeed. x_X

It's the 30th of April today and for about two more hours, lol. It's some tradition in Sweden to have a huge fire today (or sometimes tomorrow) and I got really suprised the first year down here that the Czechs has got the same. Anyways, the 30th of April used to be one of my favorite days of the year until today. Why? Because today I missed that feeling I've got every other year and it's so sad.

Today is so special, there's probably some old historical explanation but I don't really care, but for me the 30th of April means the first barbie of the year. No matter the weather!

I'm trying to save some money for the summer and I'll try and find somewhere to work during half my holiday just to get some extra money, first of all: It's always nice with extra money! second: I want to be able to afford something myself. All my money is from brithdays/Christmas and it feels weird. And by the way, I have to afford to buy some MCR-clothes too ;)

Back to the fucked up week. When did I blog the last time, Thursday? I'm pretty proud of not blogging like I did before and I have some deep thoughts about taking away the blog. I know tow people who will get so pissed off at me if I do so I will not. Even though I won't write so much. I don't feel like writing so much. I have to tell you, I've bacome a real Twittoholic instead and it's much more amazing Killjoys on Twitter than there are on Blogger.

Talking about that, I haven't found anymore Czech Killjoys. hmph, I think they're hiding somewhere, maybe there are too many dracs around in Czech Republic. It might not be safe here. *looking under the desk* things are always hiding under the desk.

How does it come that when I sayd I don't like writing so much I make these awful long posts? Urgh. I seriously have to keep my word sometime. I bet I never ever will.

I'm very untrustworhty.

Very, indeed.

Bye and goodnight!

Why don't you get a life?

Thank you dad, I love you too. -_-

If my dad knew how much life I've got.

I hate it when I get told off when I've done nothing wrong. I just sat by Twitter last night after I actually had done my homework and talked with a friend of mine and he comes and askes me about school and just something that I can't answer to and he goes mad. Thank you very much. I had to go to bed at 10pm and just leave the people I was talking to. Since when did I go to bed before 11pm?

Urgh, and what I hate even more is that my parents always try to say: 'No I'm not mad at you, it's just that...' and then later they often try to hug me and say something wise.

I went to bed at 10pm as I said and there was like a storm outside, thunder and lightnings, etc. and I've got my roof-window so it sounds like a drum when it's raining and the lightnings were lightin up the room ever second minute. I don't get scared of those things, I just think it's cosy. But unfortuently I couldn't enjoy it just as much as I'd want to. I didn't cry. I've told myself never to cry again and yesterday it worked.

Urgh, yesterday was such a great day. I was in the right mood wich made everything so much better. I fooled around during the footballtraining and these things. It's just when I get home and argue with my parents I get so depressed.

I dreamed about this cutie last night. Oh my Gee, I love him. But mum woke me up before I really got to know him. FML. How the hell can people say that he's not beautiful? Because he is.

Good bye Killjoys, on sunday I'll try and buy the tickets for Rock for People. I'm gonna go there no matter what. Even if I have to go there on my own. Like I'll be 15 by then, I should be allowed to go on my own and my dad promised me that if MCR would come to Czech Republic, I would defenitly be there.

Easter Celebration

A lot of different countries has their own way of celebrating Easter. In Sweden we eat many eggs (I hate eggs) and pretty much the same food as druing the Christmas, lol, except these special Chistmas things, of course. I don't know so much about the Czech Easter celebration but that the boys run around with their whips and whip the girls, I got so suprised when I heard about it, I went like: 'naaah, seriously?'

Yesterday when I woke up my dad told me that there had been boys running around our house looking for someone to whip. I didn't belive him because I was asleep and he always make up these things but when both my mum and sister told me he was telling the truth I belived him. What the Frank were they doing outside our house? (Frank - the new fuck, lol, I had a great time yesterday chatting with a new friend of mine that I've met through Twitter) I hardly know any Czech boys (or girls), lol.

I asked my dad: 'were they good-looking, then?'

'Yeah, I think so' my dad is weird c:

'Well then they were no friends of mine' ^_^

Miau, I need to find some more friends and get my social life going again. I really need it.

I've promised you a blogpost with photos and some words from Spain, I will as soon as I get the time to upload all the photos, it takes for ever, you know blogger. -____-

I wonder if one post will be enough, probably not. Oh my... there are looooots of photos only from my small Canon and then we have the big camera, the family camera and Roland's camera... and maybe some from Patricia's or Erica's camera.

Back to the Easter stuff, this year we didn't have any Easter dinner, the most Eastery thing we did was the my dad bought 25 Kinder eggs and we ate them all. lol, I felt so fat after. And all the toys, lol, they give the kids the shittiest toys ever nowadays.

Back in Sweden I actually wonder how long time it was since I celebrated the Easter in Sweden, most of the time we went to Norway and spent the Easter there and before that we usually visited some friends in Åre... (is that in Sweden? maybe it is. Oh wait, it is... lol.)

Now playing: My Chemical Romance - The Ghost of You

In the beginning I hated this song. I thought it was weird and their worst song ever. Nowadays I think it's one of their best songs, so much feeling and I only want to cry. If I fall, if I fall... down.

I should make a cover of this one. Sing it myself... I wonder... Maybe not.

I always get so off tpic, I'm sorry... back to the Easter stuff.

How do you celebrate Easter? Do you celebrate Easter? Why?

I celebrate Easter because of the lolly, I'm not religious in any way, and because it's a tradition, I bet in the future when I live alone I won't celebrate it at all. Maybe just eat more lally than usually. Why do I sound so fat? lol.

Some poeple actually celebrate Easter because of Jesus Christ. I adore you. I wished I belived in something that big myself. (Well, I do belive in My Chemical Romance...)

The weather outside is horrible, I hope it gets better in the afternoon... Well that doesn't matter, I have to study. I've got four weeks left this year and I would like to pass with OK grades. Wow, four weeks... that's soon. I have to finish everything. Oh my Gee. I've got so much to do!

DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN.

Can deffently not write more. I have to study. If everything should be in the 1st of June I have to hurry.

Bye!

I Missed My First Blogpost

I just realised that most of the time the first blogpost on a blog is about yoursefl. I haven't done one of those so I thought I might do one right now.

Okay, I'm Freja, Aly is just a name I made up so I wouldn't have to explain how to pronounce 'Freja' (and it's pronounced as it's written, lol.). I love music. Just sayin'... It's pretty much my life even though I'm a useless singer and gutar-player... Thet's why I want to play bass. I try to write my own songs... But I'm very bad at it, yet... Because someday, I'm gonna write real songs for Brainslush.

I'm obsessed with a little bit of everything, music, hockey, Australia, books, movies, food, Twitter, FaceBook, blogger... etc.

I'm a fake redhead. I love redheads, I would probably become a lesbian only to marry a redhead... Talking about that... I mostly see myself as bi so if you're a homphob just go. *Homophobia is gay*

I'm very random and most of the time it's too much going on in my head at the same time so I might act as a dreamer, wich I am, in a way.

I'm scared of everything but mostly blood and needles (even though I want my lip pierced...). I'm a 100% psycho.

My favorite bands are My Chemical romance and Green Day. Say something bad about them and I'll smash your face for six bucks and a Dr.Pepper.

If you'd see me on the street you'd probably go like *sigh* and think 'wow, there are idiots for everything'

I fall in love way too easily, smile at me and I'll be yours for ever.

What's your favorite hockey team?

HC EATON PARDUBICE, Färjestad... I haven't got any NHL Favorite...

What make-up do you wear?

If I wear make-up wich I only do when I'm going to meet someone I have some foundation, eyeliner and mascara. That's it.

Your hair, how does it look?

I'm naturally a curly brunette but nowadays I've dyed it red and straghten it every morning. Some say I look like Hayley Williams wich is what I want :)

Where do you live?

Not at home.

Where would you be if you could choose the place?

A U S T R A L I A - Adelaide

Do you like animals?

Yes I do and I don't. I'm allergic. I love cats and dogs. I'd die for a puppy.

Who do you trust? Do you trust?

I trust when I shouldn't and I don't when I should...

Do you belive in God?

I don't belive in God, I don't belive in luck, they don't belive in us, but I belive we're the enemy. No seriously, I'm an atheist...

When did you find out you loved MCR?

Well basically the first time I heard them... maybe 1,5 year ago. I'd love to say that I was there in the baginning but I basically founf rock music just two years ago...

Who's your best friend?

miau. I've got many! Idya, Sibbe... well maybe not so many... two... hehe, but I've got a whole bunsh of really good friends as well.

What place is your home?

Well that's a hard one. I don't really call anything home. If I do it's just to make things easier for people to understand.

Who do you love?

I love... way too many people... and if I'd write them here I'd forget half of them...

Are you happy?

I've got my up's and down's

What did you not know about me?

Fuck off Aly, ask some questions I can anwer instead.

Do you talk with yourself?

Of course I do! Who doesn't?

Do you like pie?

Yes I do, and my piefriends, don't foget them.

You're a little bit like Jack Sparrow, is he an isperation of yours?

No.

What books are you reading right now?

Acreoss the Barricades, Appelsinflickan and The Host, The first two are schoolwork.

What is your all time favorite book?

The Host.

Have you got something else to day before you post this?

Yeah. I'm me, live with it.

Bye!

A little bit of trouble (FML)

Hi *waves*

I try and I try and I try but now things aren't as they should. I successfully crated a copy of every photo in my iPhoto libary (or at least all the photos from Spain) so I'm trying to solve things out but since my computer is an asshole and I haven't slept in over 30 hours so I'm out f energy and patient. It's too warm in my room right now and I think I might have an infection on my hand. I'm not sure if I'll fall asleep tonight but I guess I will... I'm pretty tierd... *walks over to the window and open it* aaah some fresh air... As you might have noticed I'm back in Czech Republic. Makeing the streets unsafe.No maybe not... By the shape I am in right now I wouldn't be able to kill a fly.

Naaaah, I think I'll have to fix this now and then I'll maybe be back with some photos from the holiday! *leans to the desk*

byebye!

You're making me stupid

I hate him. I miss him. I love him.

i just get so pissed off. Why say A if you never say B. I miss you so much. It has been almost two years since that day out when we all were going separate paths and we'd probably never see each other again.

But then you show up. i hate FaceBook. it makes things/people I want to forget so close,and then you just ramdomly say something and then just go.

I hate you but I cannot just foget about how much i loved you back then.

I miss you.

Hey!

Hi all!

I just deleted the same blogpost for the fourth time. I hate this computer so now I don't try to touch too many things. lol. I'll write a long blogpost about my holiday here in Spain when I get home... It's great. Breakfast at 10:30am, lunch at 3:30pm, dinner at 9:30pm... I LOVE SPAIN.

I know I've changed so much the latest weeks. I bet it's twitter... lol.

I got so fucking happy yesterday when My Chemical Romance finally added, Czech Republic, rock for People on their tour list... I'm so going there on my own or with someone else... who wanna join me? ;)

I have to buy the ticket soon. As soon as I get back to Czech Republic...

Now I'll try and watch this stupid movie called The Forest. I don't get it....

Bye! ¡Adios!

PS. I've realised that during 2,5 years of studying spanish I haven't leaned a thing... Great. -_-

I'm in Spain

Hey guys!

Yes, I'm in Spain and I've been here for like one day... I can't write so much because I don't get this computer... lol.

Bye!

All The Unicorns Are Messing With My Brain - I've Lost My Phone

I've been so messy the lates days. I bet it's the unicorns messing with me. lol. No but seriously I don't even remember my homework, I'm not just not doing it but I'm forgetting it as well.

Yesterday was okay, first football and then we went to Paul and Suzie. I'm actually fine with spending time with my parents and their friends. I've sort of started to understand that I'll probably never learn Aussie English. *sadface*

I'm looking forward for this Friday! We'll go to Spain, as I've probably told you. The funniest thing, and scariest, is that on Sunday, when we're going home again it's not clear that we'll come home because of it's going to be a strike on the airport in Mardid. Haha, what if we won't get home. This will be interesting... I think it will work out fine. Otherwise you'll have to come and get me in Madrid.

I did my SCHOOL4KILLJOYS homework yesterday. I think it turned out pretty okay. It's not the nicest car in the whole wide world but it was... OK. I really need to buy some new crayons or colour-pencils. Everything gets so pale with those I've got.

I'm sorry for being myself, I'm sorry for wearing the clothes you don't like, I'm sorry for not being good enough, I'm sorry for not acting like a bitch, I'm sorry for not being the one you want me to be, I'm sorry for keeping it ugly, I'm sorry for not being pretty, I'm sorry for not being skinny and fit, I'm sorry for every true word I say about you, I'm sorry for not being the best student with the best grades, I'm sorry for you being so disapointed all the time, I'm sorry for not caring.

Well in fact, I'm not sorry for being myself, I'm not sorry for wearing what I want, I'm not sorry for not being good enough, I'm not sorry for not acting like a bitch, I'm not sorry for not being the one you want me to become, I'm not sorry for keeping it ugly, I'm not sorry for not being pretty, I'm not sorry for not being skinny and fit, I'm not sorry for every true word I say about you, I'm not sorry for being the top-student, I'm not sorry for have just OK, grades and I'm deffently not sorry for not caring!

Fanfic

(Everybody #SINGItForSniper)

Part ten

That morning was the first time I got a clear look of Idya. Her green hair still chocked me, in the city people had their natural hair colour or something simular, but it was more like 'Wow that's so cool' now instead of 'Green hair? That's so weird'. She had her sunglasses on most of the time so I couldn't see her eyes. She had a black jacket with many rivets and yellow pants. I fell in love with her pants right away.

The sun was shining really bright, too bright for me and because of the hangover I couldn't do so much. I tried to figure out somehow to get rid off the headache the only thing that helped was to stay in the shadow and drink water. Fun Ghoul came and sat down next to me.

"You know this is all your fault", I told him and pushed him a little.

"You can't take some booze", he said and laughed, "What do you think of her?"

He pointed at Idya, she was sitting and leaned her on a rock and looked really relaxed.

"I think she's cool. I wonder how she has survived out here on her own", I said and tried to figure out some way of surviving in the desert.

"I don't think she on her own, she can't be"

"But why would she be here with us in that case?"

"Maybe she's a spy"

"Don't start again"

"I wasn't serious", he sighed, "You know I'm sorry for what I did and said"

"Yeah, I know, and you know I'm sorry for being so spyish", I smiled and leaned my head on his shoulder.

I wanted to stay like that for ever but of course why shoud those moments last for too long?

"Shouldn't we get going", asked Kobra Kid. He was probably the most clever one of us because he had fallen asleep before the rest of us and missed all the drinking.

"Yeah, why not!? Maybe we'll find some dracs out there who wanna mess with us, I'll kill them all!" said Idya and we all got really suprised. She hadn't said so much during the time and now she was as good as in ecstasy.

We got going and I got to have a chat with Idya. She was in a great mood knowing that she'd get a chance to show what she was made of.

"So how did you end up with these guys?" she asked.

I told her the story about how I had ran away and got 'kidnapped' by the guys.

"...and here I am", I said and smiled, she looked at me with big eyes.

"You were actually going out in the desert without anything with you? I thought you were smart"

"Why does everybody keep saying that?! Like wouldn't you do the same if it was you who were stuck in the city?"

"No, I'd have brought some kinda food, and water. Deffently water"

I mumbled some swears and tried to keep a straight face. I knew that I had been so stupid just running away without anything. I knew that and I had a hard time admiting it and I'd never ever tell the Killjoys that I had done wrong.

I couldn't help likning Idya, she was just one of these people that made me smile. It was as if we had known eachother since we were kids.

"We should stay here, we're not out hiking, just showing Aly the desert", said Jet-Star when we had walked for about an hour. We were in the middle of some dry canyon and the cliff walls were reaching high up to the sky on both sides of us. The sun was shining down at us and I tried to look up in the sky without getting pain in my eyes.

"Can't we take a look aroud here first? It's pretty cool!" I said and truned around still looking up in the sky, "I've never seen anything like it"

I couldn't help it. The place was so amazing and I had to have a look around. The rocks were orange and I har to touch them to belive that they were real. I hadn't seen that orange rocks since I was five and it brought back memories.

I was like playing up an old film. Me and my brother had been running around and our parents had been yelling at us to take it careful and not go too far away from the small caravan that we had rented to go around in the US. My mum's lsmile, words and the pain when I tripped and scraped up my knees. My mum had kissed my forehead, told me everything would be fine and a minute later I had forgotten about the pain and was running around again. My brother had climbed up on a big rock and I was so angry because of that I couldn't get up as well.

I found myself staning with one had on a big orange rock and I felt both sad and happy. I shaked my head and tried to forget. I didn't have place for those memories in my life.

I looked up and saw that the others had started to explore the place as well. I decided it was time to take some thinking time on my own so I walked in teh oposite direction to the others, they wouldn't worry.

I found a really slim run wich I sqeezed myself through. No, it was no idea to try and find my way in the darkness and I went out again. I wanted to explore something really far away, something unreachable, something risky, something dangerous. Maybe I could climb somewhere.

I looked up and saw a ledge just over my head. I grabbed it and tried to find somewhere to put my feet. There was a small run about 75centimeters over the groud when I put my right foot and climbed up.

I stood there on the ledge and looked down. It wasn't very high. I wanted to get higher up and looked to my left. There was a smaller ledge that looked more like a shelf about a meter from where I was and it was a little bit higher up. I counted to seventeen and jumped. I felt how my feet touched the shelf and I stood with my face towards the wall.

This was easy, I thought and kept going. And it was easy, there were many shelves with I could stand on and I got higher and higher all the time.

I got to a place where I decided to stay. I hadn't looked down for a while and got a little bit chocked about how far down the ground was. I could see the others down there and they looked so small. I didn't want them to notice me, I felt like a boss standing up there. I looked where I had started to climb up and could see someone moving there. It was deffently not a Killjoy. I began to clmib back down as silent as I could. When I got closer I could see that it was a draculoid. Maybe I should have warned the others and told them about the pig but I wanted to know what the hell he was doing here and most of all why he was alone. It wasn't to the ordernary to see a drac on its own.

The drac was deffently sneaking around looking for something or maybe he was spying on us. Maybe he had been following us all the time. I had to hurry down but also take it easy, I didn't want to fall down.

I got down to the ledge I had started off at and looked down. The ground was one and a half meter under me and I'd have to jump. I counted to seventeen once more and jumped. I landed with a thud and scraped up my pants and knees. I mumbled some swears and got up on my feet again.

The draculoid was had passed by so he was between me and the others so I could just go over there and warn them without showing myself. I decided to follow the drac and try to figure out what he was doing. My knees were stinging really bad and I tried to whipe away some sand and dust from the wound.

There he was sneaking around as if he was some sort of spy, I couldn't help smiling. If he knew that I was standing right behind him ready to shoot any second. He went further to the others and I followed him, like a shadow.

The pig set off a little bit faster and he got really close to the Killjoys. I wasn't sure if I should shoot him or not, I decided to wait. If he did something it would be the last thing he ever did.

When he was really close he stayed and got up his gun. Now, you've gone to far, I thought and pulled up my gun from the belt.

"Hey, you stupid pig!" I sad, he looked up and I shot. I felt so coldbloody. I had no regrets but still so coldbloody. When the echo from teh shot had faded away the others came running towards me.

"What happened?" asked Party Poison and looked at me and then at the dead draculoid.

I told them how I had been climbing like a five year old boy and then had sawn the pig down in the canyon snekaing around.

Idya sat down on her knees next to the drac. She pulled off the mask and gasped.

"You've killed him", she mumbled, "You've killed him! You stupid! You've killed him!"

She wasn't mumbling anymore, more like screaming. I backed off.

"Look what you've done", she stood up and faced towards me, "you've killed him. You've killed my brother!"

I didn't know what to say. He was a draculoid, how could he possibly have been her brother? It couldn't be true. I could see tears coming down on her cheek, she wasn't kidding.

"How the hell was I supposed to know that he was your brother?! He's a pig!" I shouted. I was getting really annoyed. How should I have known?

"Why would a pig on its own walk around here? Think about that", she said and pushed me, "You're just a murderer!"

The word 'murderer' hit me like a face punsh and I got more and more angry. Why wouldn't she understand.

Idya sat down next to the pig on her knees. Now she cried more than before and I started to feel sorry for her.

"Just go, leave me here! Now!" she looked up at me and her eyes were filled with so much hate I couldn't look back. I walked away I didn't really know were I was heading but I just wanted to walk away from it. Leave it behind me and move on, I knew that wasn't possible but it was all I wanted to do for the moment. I found a small run in the rocks where I sat down and tried to forget. My mind was empty and I couldn't really think clear. Murderer. I had killed Idya's brother.

To be continued...

I had planned to write a really long blogpost with lots of photos from my phone so you could get a small look of my life. Unfourtently I haven't had time... I guess you'll have to wait for a week 'til next post, or maybe I'll have enough time this afternoon to write something... We'll see. It's pretty depressing to write these small note in the end of the fanfic. But what should I do? I've had so much to do in school I can't think clearly. I hope that maybe my attitude to school will change after the holidays...

So what are you gonna do this Easter holiday? :)

SMS-nights and Lovely People

I hope that Idya has got some sort of deal with her phone company because she sent me lots of texts last night. (that reminds me of that I've forgotten my phone at home. success -.-')

I've been so uncareish (un-care-ish) the latest couple of days. I've sort of enjoyed it. But now, I really have to get back to school and do my best to get through the year with good grades. Next year I have to attend to High School and it will be a hell.

So last evening I went in to the city and spent it with my friend. It was nice and I felt like a fish most of the time (feeling like a fish is something good). I found some nice shorts on H&M that I have to buy for Spain.

I realised that I've got a pretty American accent when I speak English, wich made me a little bit depressed. It's not as bad as it could be at least. After summer 2012 I bet I'll have the Aussie accent that I want.

I sorry for all these annoying posts that don't make sense, but it's just me being me.

I have to get going with my studies. In fact, I've got Swedish right now ._.

Bye!

Words aren't only words if they come from the right person

We are a generation told not to try too hard. The world is going to shit, so why break a sweat? We are reminded daily not to trust our gut or follow our hearts, your dreams are unattainable and unrealistic... the band almost fell victim to this "just good enough" mentality and would have never been able to forgive ourselves. You, the fans, deserved better and us as artists deserved better.

Fear is the eternal enemy. If they can keep you scared, they can keep you controlled. We too came face to face with this saboteur, and found the strength to break through and carry on. We are here as a reminder that the world is not better off without you...these are dangerous days we live in and you, the artists, are our last defense.

Art is the Weapon.

Your Imagination is the Ammunition.

Stay Dirty, and Stay Dangerous.

Create and Destroy as you see fit.

Embrace your Originality.

The Aftermath is Secondary.

You can and should do Anything.

In conclusion friends, if you take anything away from this record, please let it be the strength to be passionate.

Love what you do and who you truly are. Be willing to die for it. If you are true to yourself, you can never go wrong. And remember when life gives you lemons, MCR says start a fucking band.

-Frank Iero

I couldn't help posting this. It's the most beautiful words ever spoken and they are so true. So true I wanna cry.

Fanfic

(lack of pics...)

Part nine

Waiting had never been a problem for me. After spending two months without doing anything I was fine with waiting for some more hours for the adventure to begin. But I knew four others that weren't.

"They should be here by now", said Fun Ghoul and opened up the door. He walked aroung a little and the sat down in the car again. He didn't shut the door and kept his legs out of the car as if he would leave any minute.

"They will come", said Party Poison and leaned back the chair.

The minutes felt like hours and the night was colder than I had expected.

When I lost my patient as well we were almost going to give in when the lights from the truck got visable. Now we had to hurry, it was all about to get the truck to stop before it came to the inventory and make the driver unable to send an emergency singal to the draculoids.

In the matter of two seconds, Fun Ghould had shut the door and Party Poison drove off with a roar.

"Okay, so this it what we're gonna do", said Jet-Star, "Party Poison drive side to side with the truck and Kobra Kid Aly and I will have to shoot for the driver. But for the price of God, don't hit him! Not 'til the truck has stopped"

"And what will I do?" asked Fun Ghoul

"Take care", said Kobra Kid and laughed.

Party Poison drove up next to the truck and I climed up so I had half my body out the skylight, I had a feelin of déjà vu but I was sure about that I wasn't going to get shot this time. I aimed for the mirror.

"Three, two, one!" shouted Jet-Star and I shot. The mirros went to pieces, the driver got really frighten and hit the brake.

"Now hit the driver!" shouted Party Poison and did a sudden brake and the car tuner around and blocked the road. I almost fell off and in the matter of a second I thought I'd end up on the dark asphalt. I aimed for the driver and shot. The glass was hard to shoot thorugh and it took us some time to get a hole big enough to able to shoot the driver. I aimed but someone was faster than me and had already shot him. I looked over my left shoulder and could see that it wasn Party Poison who had shot him.

"Oh, you stupid, I was going to take him!" I said and tried to sound angry.

"C'mon, let's check out the catch", said Kobra Kid and headed for the back of the truck, "Oh my... We need some sort of code to get in here"

I walked over to him and he pointed at some display.

"Shouldn't be a problem", I said and touched the screen it shined up and said 'Enter code'.

"Do you know what you're doing?" asked Party Poison.

"Yeah, I studied Technology for about two years and I know some things about how to hack these locks. They're not too complicated"

"Is there anything more we should know about you?" asked Fun Ghoul.

"I love ice-cream", I said and laughed, "you know only because I'm a girl doesn't mean I don't know stuff"

I pulled off the display from it's position and looked at the backside. The small lit was sitting there on the backside as I had expected. I opened it and there they were, the small cables.

"Check this out, I take the first one and cut it off. Have anyone got a knife?" I asked and looked araound. Jet-Star reached me a pocket knife and I cut off the cable, "Never ever touch the second one, no matter what you do! It shuts it down and you can't go further. The third one should you also leave unless it won't open if you cut of the forth"

I cut off the forth and heard a ticking sound. The back of the truck opened.

"Wow, you know more about these things?" asked Kobra Kid.

"Well, it you study Technology it's like top secret, only the best can study it", I said and smiled

"Then how the hell did you get in?" said Fun Ghoul and smiled. I gave him a hateful look.

"We should get away from here before the draculoids come", said Party Poison. He climed up in the truck and started to load out some big boxes.

I reached for one but couldn't carry it. It was to heavy for my left arm and I almost dropped it before Jet-Star catched it for me.

"Fuck it!" I scremed and got to pissed off at myself. I didn't want to be more useless than anyone else.

Our car couldn't contain so many boxes, we took four. It felt pretty strange to leave the truck like that but also nice. It had been a fun adventure and it would be worth it.

We didn't head back to the house but further out in the desert, we were going to spent some time out there only to live some desert life.

It was still dark when we made it to the place where we were going to leave the car. It was a small cage. Or I wouldn't call it a cage but not just a rock either. The car would be hidden well and it was only if you looked very close you could see it.

"Are you ready for some real desert life?" asked Fun Ghoul and smiled.

"Of course!" I said and tried to sound convincing, in fact I was pretty scared. It would be the first time that I'd go out in the desert just like that without anything. Well maybe the second. The first time was when I ran away from the city but that was different.

It was so dark and quiet without the car going.

"We should stay here this night and go tomorrow when it's day instead", said Party Poison.

We decided to stay there and got a fire buring, it all was pretty cosy and the atmosphere was warm and also exciting. It wasn't like tha capms I had been at before BL/ind, it was better.

"Hey, everybody, look what I've got", said Fun Ghoul and held up two bottles, whiskey, I thought.

"Where did you find those?" asked Kobra Kid.

"I have my contacts", he said and winked. He reached over one of the bottles to me. I took a sip a started to cough.

"Why do you drink this shit?" I asked and tried to get rid of the burning in my throat.

"Just to get high, baby"

I laughed. I coudn't help it but after a while I was really drunk and sat next to Fun Ghoul singing old rock classics. Most of the songs I didn't know but some of them I had heard before BL/ind and some I had heard during the time alone in the house.

"You know what", he said and looked at me, "we should seriously get married"

"You deffently shoud", said Party Poison and looked at us, "Like Aly's smart and you're... less smart. Perfect match"

"You know if I wasn't drunk I probably would have come over and hit you or something, you're just lucky"

I couldn't stand listen to their arguing so I laid down on my back in the sand and looked up in the sky. The night was going towards its end. I sat up again.

"What were you doing down there?" asked Fun Ghoul.

"Well, I'm tierd", I said, it was a little bit of a lie but I felt that I was getting more and more tierd.

"So, you're falling asleep, like Jet-Star and Kobra Kid?" he said and looked at me as I was stupid. I hadn't noticed that Jet-Star and Kobra Kid had fallen asleep but when I looked around they were laying on their backs sleeping like babies.

"I'm not faling alseep", I said and grabbed the bottle, I tried to drink some but it was empty, "Why is the booze always out when I want some"

"There should be some more in the car", said Fun Ghoul.

"So you found it in the car", I said and laughed. I got up on my feet and tried to stand without wobble. I headed for the car, "I'll be back soon"

I slowly walked over to the car. The guy were talking and laughing and I couldn't help thinking of what a great time I had when I spent my days with those guys.

The car was as hidden as before and I had almost trouble with finding it myself. I searched through the car after some bottles. Finally I found them under Fun Ghouls seat, he was such a smuggler, he had known all the time that those bottles would get used. i grabbed something that didn't look too expensive. As I shut the door to the car I heard a klicking sound. The sound of a gun, I'd recognise it anywhere.

"Don't move", I heard a female voice just behind me. "Who are you?"

"I'm... We're... We're Killjoys", I couldn't quite think clear because of the booze but I knew that I shoud do as I got told.

"You know if you keep making noises like that the draculoids will find you", she said. She had lowerd her gun and I turned around to take a look at her. She was taller than me wich wasn't a huge suprise. The most strange thing about her was her hair. It was green. I had never sawn anyone with green hair before and got a little bit chocked. The weak light from th fire lit up her face and I could see how she looked.

"Aly, come over with that Whiskey or will I have to and get it myself?" I hear Fun Ghoul from the fireplace.

I looked over at the gilr again as if I waited for a sign from her if I could go or not.

"Why don't you interduce me to your friends", she said and pointed at the guys.

"Coming!" I began to walk to the guys and the girl followed me, "I found something else as well"

First they looked as if they had seen a ghost when it got clear to them that I wasn't the only girl any more and then the questions came up.

"Where did you find her?"

"Is she one of them?"

The girl, who's name was Idya, was an outlaw just like the Killjoys. She was seventeen just like me and had been around in the desert since 2015 when she had ran away from a schooltrip.

When she had interducer herself I was so tierd I fell asleep on the ground.

When I woke up again I was laying with a tight grip around Fun Ghouls waist and he had his arms around my neck. If it wasn't for the horrible headache it would have been the most romantic thing in the world but when the first thing I did when I woke up was throwing up things weren't as nice as they should. All of the Killjoys felt the same.

Idya who had stayed away from the booze treated us just like people treat those who have drunk too much. Jet-Star and Kobra Kid got really surpised when they saw her and their first reaction was pig, but when she ecplained they understood. Somehow I also had a feeling of that they wanted to make things up to me by treating her different to what they had done to me at first.

To be continued...

Okay, I have to go to bed, but I know that if I don't post this, Idya will get so fucking mad at me x'D here you go! <3