A little bit of yesterday...

Yesterday was one of the most random days in my life, nothing seemed to go as planned...

I ended 45 minutes earlier because... I'm not quite sure... I stayed in town because I was going to the hairdresser at 3:30pm. I went to McDonalds because I had to ahve something to eat or I'd die and I got a hamburger (I hate McDonalds ><) and blah, blah. They give away free mugs over there! Then I still had some time over until I was going to the hairdresser so I walked really slow but I'm a little bit weird so I speed up without knowing it. So I walked around the block a couple of times before I went into the hairdresser (10 minutes before the time I had booked ><) but she was alright with that and I said what colour I wanted (Well I didn't say "sassy, Gerard Way red" but I told her I wanted it really red) but she didn't have the colour I wanted so I got some less intensive red colour. But I went like "What the hell...?" and she dyed darker red, wich I'm pretty pleased with but then she styled it really weird so I looked like someone from the seventies. (asdfghjklWTF?!?!?!) Then when I was done I walked to the busstation and waited for the next no12 and I jumped on it and enjoyed the ride. Not very much. I almost fell over three times in the corners. lol. As the bus got to Cerna za Bory it didn't want to go any longer and I had to get off. From Cerna za Bory it's a 2 km walk to my village. Nice. So, still looking like someone from the eventies I walked home. With my earphones plugged in and Kill All Your Friend on replay I walked... And got home. Finally! I thought and found my mum and my sister in the garden, sitting in the sun eating chocolate... What a family I've got, huh? Then I "studied" for a while... Which was horribly boring so I did as always and spent the evening on Twitter.

Later on the eveing Seden faced Germany in the quarter final and I watched it. But only the first two periods I had to go to bed. I found out next moring that Sweden had won with 5:2. I want to belive in the Swedish boys this year. If they'd claim the gold medal I'll cry! but first they'll have to face Czech Republic. Oh no, now my personality will get split again. As it does every single time Sweden faces Czech Republic. I'd get really happy if the Czechs would win this year again too but I belive in the Swedes this year and I want them to win more. (I know that Ida has stopped reading now... heh xD)

I've told you that music is my drug, but now I've got a new drug-dealer. Lol, Ida, I love all the songs you sent me! I'll soon be needing more *evilface*

I slow did a huge misstake the last day and promised Robin that I'd let him dye my hair brown >< (fanfanfanfanfanfanfan I don't look good in brown hair) lol, but I gues I'll have to keep my promises to him. I broke one of them two days ago.

I look weird nowadays. Fact. ;)

I'll talk to you later...

And that, my dear monsters, is how a good life is thrown away

Urgh, I feel like doing something before the rugby, like go to the city or something. Taking some summery photos. I've always got these great plans, it's a pity they never come true. Of course today when I feel like spending the afternoon with someone I forgot my phone at home. Stupid, stupid me. I'm not even sure about where I've put it, maybe under the table.

Always under the table.

I think I've gone Twitter-mad, like I write too much there. Way too much. I also read through Frankies all tweets, from 2008 'til now. Haha, no not really, I just checked the maddest ones and the photos. Hehe.

I don't understand the listing thing yet, though... I have to figure it out, appearently I got listed, twice, by someone... hmm...

I have to find somewhere to get real updates from the Swedish hockey, I'm like really excited now, my team is in the finale and so on... I have to watch the finales, or I'll kill myself. I wish I had some to share my thought about the Swedish hockey with, my friends don't care, you gals probably don't care neither, my father support another team that's in the lower legue an my mum just doesn't know about how to talk hockey with me. I've never ever cared about the Swedish hockey before neither but now, I've actually started to enjoy it and I've bagan to care as well.

Have I ever told you about my summers, how I spend them?

I spend them at my granparenst place just by the big lake Vänern, I've got my cousins there and a lot of friends. I guess even if the place is small, there's such a bounch of random people there. Gash, I love them!

Back to the topic, we often go out with out boat to some island out on the lake and swim and sun bathing, it's always cold in the water, but, you know, I'm used to it. Often we meet our friend out on the islands to have a barbie, I love it, I wish I could invite the whole world to come and enjoy the Swedish lake-life. But I guess it would be so many people out there, it's not everywhere in the world you can get an island on your own.

I've always loved to swim and so, it's a part of who I am. Who I always will be. Living without water is like living without air for me. That's the hardest part about Czech Republic. But as Swedes, we can sniff ourselves to the water and Jess's mum found this beautiful lake when she worked here. All blue and fresh and deep, really deep.

I'll tell you more about myself some other time.

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

The feeling of being unable to breath.

There are not many grown up men in this world that can make me cry like a baby. When the guys lost, a big part of me died. I didn't burst right away, first I couldn't belive it, but then later when I tried to fall asleep it all came clear to me.

Fuck it.

Stupid Vitkovice.

I just didn't see that coming. After those two goals in a row I did not see that coming!

It will be forever 'till I go to Cez arena again. It will be forever 'till I see the guys again. And it will be forever again 'till I'll feel that happiness and love I only feel when I'm there. This is going to be a depressing summer. Shit, I hate this hopeless feeling!

And there's nothing I can do about it.

The guys truly deserved to win. They were the better team, still are, will always be.

...

Hey all!

I'm here, with a rat trying to escape from all the time and the same time I'm trying to find out a name to my future turtle. I want Frank and Sydney, but Embla won't agree and she knows that I'll get bored and she'll get them after a while. Maybe I'm not ready for a turtle yet. I've taken over Embla's computer, she hates me.

I'm really nervous about tonight. I need to get together and calm down, this isn't a losing day! We've beaten them before, we can do it again, three wins in a row, I don't care what the odds are, it's gonna happen! I will cry till the next season if they lose (BUT THEY'LL NOT!) Pardubice is the better team, and that won't change during two nights. WHY AM I SO NERVOUS? I shouldn't be.

I'm so sad (T.G.I.F)

Oh no, this wasn't planned. The guys weren't suposed to lose! It all felt pretty good in the beginning, and then it all went downhill, well in fact, no, because Pardubice is the better team, the only thing is that they can't score... (wich is what it's all about)

It's a hell of a big hill to climb now. Three wins in a row, that (ain't) gonna happen!

Urgh, I was so sad (and I still am but I'm starting to melt it now) when the guys lost. I almost wanted to cry and do like Koukal, just destroy something. It wasn't fair.

Urgh, then I relived it all in my dreams during the night. The last goal, the broken stick, the sad and angry faces. Everything.

My life is all messed up. I have got a small headache and I'm still pretty sad. The cold isn't over yet, it has come to that state when I just cough all the time, if I'm lucky it'll be oven on Sunday, if I'm unlucky it'll last for two weeks... I didn't sleep so much this night, since I woke up at 4:10 and didn't really fall asleep again till like an hour later, and then it was pretty much time to get up. (At least in the matter of an hour...)

Thank God It's Friday! This has been one of the longest weeks in my life. Today, dad will come home and were going to be rat-watchers for Tomas's rat, hmm, it's going to be interesting. I'm trying to learn the whole lyrics to Planetary (GO!), I don't know why but it's a great song and it has got a long text with a cool meaning (in fact I think is my subcontiousness telling me to think about something else than the game and the guys).

I think that's it from me today, or at least for now. I'll be back, you know it!

Bye all!

Ths stupid feeling of todays game being the last game at home this year...

Yes, I'm in school today, I don't know if I'm well enough but I had to, or my sister would die of jealousy and I wouldn't go to the hockey, so here I am, eating HALLS (reminding myself that I have to buy some more later) and blowing my nose every second minute. My nose is red and hurts when I touch it and I can't think as clear as I want to...

Who said that life's fair?

I'm freaking out about onights game. You know I do my Maths and I counted out that this might be the last game at home this year... Stupid thoughts. Stupid, stupid thoughts. I have to stay positive, you know, keep up the spark and the hope.

This hopeless feeling, this fear of fallinging down, but I'm not crashing now

[Safe and Sound]

So I'm heading for another packet of HALLS now, lol.

Bye all!

No School=No Hockey

I didn't go to school today, first of all I'm ill, second of all, I didn't sleep anything tonight. So now because of that I didn't go to school it means that I'm not well enought to go to the hockey (according to my mum...). I'll watch TV tongith, urgh, it's just not the same. No athmosphare, no loud sounds, no fan club, just me and the hockey... I hate it, nobody to share my thoughts with, nothing... If I would have had my ticket I'd be on the bus right now, but mum has got the tickets...

She just doesn't understand that I can get well during a day...

I'll be there tomrrow, you'll see...

I'm pretty depressed about this, I was looking forward for it so bad and now, I'm watching it from home, I went from being there to a small TV... I hate this. If the boys win I'll be really sad for not being there...

Urgh, she doesn't understand how much this means to me.

I almost want to cry...

The feeling of hope

A victory! Yey! I've got back my spark and my hope, I know it's everything but over, well, it's a beginning. mm, and I've finally woker out who I think Spirko looks like; Paul Wesley! Don't mess with me, I like to find out who I think look alike.

Anyway, about today: Yes the swedes came here as I said they would and I'm sorry about the fact I didn't take any photos... So, I've got nothing to share, wich is pretty sad.

Then later we went to Ondra's bar to watch the hockey, and I said, my spark is back and I can sniff some hope coming back to me!

I'm not going to write anything more, I don't feel like it even though I'm pretty happy!

Bye all!

Pop-corn-war in the kitchen, hockey by the computer and cancer

Today me and mum baked semlor, it's like a bun filled with cream and marzipan. Great stuff! It's a Swedish traditiom to eat them on some special day wich I've forgotten but it was in February so we're a little bit late here.

Then I watched the hockey game and because it wasn't sent live I had to tell myself not to check hcpce.cz and look at the results, in the en, I did it five minutes before the end of the game. And, wow, what a suprise, no, seriously no, I just got sad, not suprised over that aweful score. Hopefully the boys will get back and win some game, I'm not so sure about the final this year I have to admit.

And after that I spent some time infron of the computer doing as good as nothing until 9:50pm and that's when The Big C begins, I have to tell you, I love it! It's just so great, so funny and yet so tragic. Cancer is a horrible thing!

I didn't sleep in y room last night, why not? Because my computer is weird and he was loading something all night long (wich I ruined today anyways)... I sort of like that room, and I like the bed most of all, hehe... Where you gonna sleep tonight?

Tomorrow's going to be nice, I'll take lots of photos and hopefully I'll share some of them with you! (Somehow I feel like I show you more photos at this blog, but yet not half the way as I'd like to) You see all the Swedes are coming and we'll have lost of semlor in different wariations. Like rasberries and chocolate, vanilla and the original.

No I'll go to bed, hopefully, and I will not be allowed to sleep longer that till nine, very depressing but true. I've got pop-corn between my teeth... (just sharing my deep thoughts) And me and Embla had pop-corn-war in the kitchen, how about that? We put IKEA-bowls on our headt and throw pop-corn on each other, we're very childish but it's so funny (the best thing is when you hit a flying pop-corn with a spoon)... But guess who had to clean the kitchen? Nevermind bothering...

Bye all! *kissing you all good night*

Today with Freja

I started the day with waking up, and then pancakes for breakfast, we don't usually have pancakes for breakfast but they where left overs from yesterday so why not? Hten I went to the Czech school and had English and P.E, as usually I got lost in the building and ended up outside the classroom I was going to just by accident and met the woman who invited me to the school and she comfirmed that I was on the right place.

I love people accepting me for being messy...

And then when I was going from the English class to the P.E I met an old friend from when I went swimming, she got really suprised, I see why, I haven't told her... Stupid me! On the P.E I'm not sure what we did, I didn't do so much at least...

Then it was time for me to get back to my own school, I started to walk to the bus stop and just as I arrived the bus that I had planned to take left, so I had to walk, wich took about 30 minutes but it was a really nice walk, I didn't take the fastest route, I didn't want to take the fastest route either. I enjoy walking and I have to admit, I was on a place I had never been to, wich was cool.

I wasn't lost I promise.

So I went back to my school and the day dragged itself to 1:30pm and then I, Embla and Jess were suposed to do some inlines but the weather had other plans and we ended up watching Little Miss Sunshine, it's a great movie about just how weird the world is... I love the movie, it's one of my favorites and it's impossible to forget about it.

I just checked out hcpce.cz and noticet THAT PARDUBICE AIN'T GONNA MEET TRINEC!! I'm so freaking happy, meeting Trinec wouldn't be so good, but Vitkovite isn't to play with either but still they feel more like a semi-team this year (even though it was a final-team last year...), I'm still not sure about what Pardubice feels like, during some periods of this season I didn't feel like they'd make it to the play-offs...

I've been thinking about where to get all the non album songs by MCR, I've fallen in love with Kill All your Friends right now... Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba... (in fact I've only got My Way Home Is Through You on my iPod as a non album song...) I think I can probably buy them through iTunes, but then I need an acount, wich my dad has got but it doesn't work for some reason... Hopefully maybe some of my friends have downloaded some of the songs...

I think that's pretty much it, I was suposed to go to the footballtraining today but I didn't go because of the weather, well that's not the true reason you see I love ruinning around in the rain but I didn't want to... I never want to but I feel good afterwards.

Bye all!