I'm a bad blogger

As you sure notice I haven't blogged in ages. I'm still not sure if I've missed it or not... I'm not hooked up like I was before. Talking about being hooked: I've really gotten into The Wombats lately. I saw them at Rock for People and, yeah, I fell in love. It's not often I hear some music and start dancing like crazy.

This summer has gone so fast and it's soon time to go back to school. (22nd of August, I think) It will be a hell. I really don't want to go back to school. Urgh. I just hope I won't get depressed again.

You see my mentor seem to have taken some sort of roll as my therapist. She says she knows what it's like to be in my age. On the outside I nod and so but on the inside I want to yell at her:

"YOU MIGHT KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE 15 BUT YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ME. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU FUCKING KNOW ME!"

But I don't.

I think that's it. We'll head back to Czech Republic on Sunday. (not tomorrow.)

I wish I could tell you more, but I'm empty.

My Chemical Romance

I had never been to a festival before and I had never seen MCR before. I felt that it was going to be one of the best days of my life, and, yeah it was. I got to Hradec Kralove and met up with my friends (That I had never met the before but what the hell?). The festival hadn't really begun when we got there, well there were soe smaller bands playing, some good, some worse.

Anyways, later the bigger bands started to play and it all began with the John Butler Trio from Australia and oh my God they were good. So skilled.

Then it was time for White Lies and I'm not sure what to think. Did they play the same song over and over again? Because it almost felt like that.

Then The Wombats and where have they been all my life? Seriously? Why didn't I know about them? They were fukken awesome! And the drummer... He was hot.

Then it was time for pretty much what the whole day (and my whole life) was about.

My Chemical Romance

Firts they did Na Na Na and then a generator failed and they had to go off the stage. Dammit! Then they got back up on stage and the audience (inc. me) went crazy! And they did half a song and another generator failed. (like, c'mon -_-)

Then they got out on stage again and did their show.

I must say:

Gerard, I don't understand how he can be so sassy! I love him!

Frank, he looked taller than he actually is. Small guy with big heart and olot of respect. I love him!

Ray, oh my God, his smile, his hair! I love him!

Mikey, awkward knees. I love him!

Pedicone, he's a great drummer! I love him!

Even thought eh people around me pushed me around very much, it was the best day of my life.

All in all: When's the next show in Czech Rep.?

Easter Celebration

A lot of different countries has their own way of celebrating Easter. In Sweden we eat many eggs (I hate eggs) and pretty much the same food as druing the Christmas, lol, except these special Chistmas things, of course. I don't know so much about the Czech Easter celebration but that the boys run around with their whips and whip the girls, I got so suprised when I heard about it, I went like: 'naaah, seriously?'

Yesterday when I woke up my dad told me that there had been boys running around our house looking for someone to whip. I didn't belive him because I was asleep and he always make up these things but when both my mum and sister told me he was telling the truth I belived him. What the Frank were they doing outside our house? (Frank - the new fuck, lol, I had a great time yesterday chatting with a new friend of mine that I've met through Twitter) I hardly know any Czech boys (or girls), lol.

I asked my dad: 'were they good-looking, then?'

'Yeah, I think so' my dad is weird c:

'Well then they were no friends of mine' ^_^

Miau, I need to find some more friends and get my social life going again. I really need it.

I've promised you a blogpost with photos and some words from Spain, I will as soon as I get the time to upload all the photos, it takes for ever, you know blogger. -____-

I wonder if one post will be enough, probably not. Oh my... there are looooots of photos only from my small Canon and then we have the big camera, the family camera and Roland's camera... and maybe some from Patricia's or Erica's camera.

Back to the Easter stuff, this year we didn't have any Easter dinner, the most Eastery thing we did was the my dad bought 25 Kinder eggs and we ate them all. lol, I felt so fat after. And all the toys, lol, they give the kids the shittiest toys ever nowadays.

Back in Sweden I actually wonder how long time it was since I celebrated the Easter in Sweden, most of the time we went to Norway and spent the Easter there and before that we usually visited some friends in Åre... (is that in Sweden? maybe it is. Oh wait, it is... lol.)

Now playing: My Chemical Romance - The Ghost of You

In the beginning I hated this song. I thought it was weird and their worst song ever. Nowadays I think it's one of their best songs, so much feeling and I only want to cry. If I fall, if I fall... down.

I should make a cover of this one. Sing it myself... I wonder... Maybe not.

I always get so off tpic, I'm sorry... back to the Easter stuff.

How do you celebrate Easter? Do you celebrate Easter? Why?

I celebrate Easter because of the lolly, I'm not religious in any way, and because it's a tradition, I bet in the future when I live alone I won't celebrate it at all. Maybe just eat more lally than usually. Why do I sound so fat? lol.

Some poeple actually celebrate Easter because of Jesus Christ. I adore you. I wished I belived in something that big myself. (Well, I do belive in My Chemical Romance...)

The weather outside is horrible, I hope it gets better in the afternoon... Well that doesn't matter, I have to study. I've got four weeks left this year and I would like to pass with OK grades. Wow, four weeks... that's soon. I have to finish everything. Oh my Gee. I've got so much to do!

DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN.

Can deffently not write more. I have to study. If everything should be in the 1st of June I have to hurry.

Bye!

My Ray Gun

I've been so much on Twitter nowadays and I've started this "school" called SCHOOL4KILLJOYS. It's just great and it's created by a fan of MCR. It's all about being creative and the first task was to get a Killjoy name. Mine's Secret Joy Bomb as you might have noticed. The second task was to design a Ray Gun for yourself. This is mine:

(sorry for like the worst quality ever)

To be honset, I'm pretty proud about it and it's original still all mine! I'm going to kill so many draculoids with this one!

The third task is to create a Killjoy outfit for yoursefl and that's what I'm doing right now, or at least try to because I know I'm going to have some sort of colourful pants and Dr. Martens but I'm not sure about the top. I think it should be dark like black or grey with some colourful details, and then the mask. That's what I'm worried about but I think I've come up with something good though ^_^

I've been speaking a different language for the latset couple of days and I don't think anyone without any knowledge of the Killjoys would understand my tweets. I finally feel like I've got a life to share with you.

Thanks! :D

Toothpaste on my lips

Ciao!

It's pretty interesting when I get a FaceBook message from an old classmate from Sweden, it was like a year since I spoke to her, the time is going so fast nowadays. Like running...

Soon it will be easter and we'll be off to Spain for a week, that will be great, I've never been there before, even though dad has got a friend living there. (he has got a friend on Isle of Man as well, I've never been there neither)

Today I think I'm going for the touch-rugby, it has been forevern since last time.

When I got that message from my old classmate, I thought back and thought about how much I've changed the last years. Especially my way of thinking, I've always tried to be like everyone else, now I just do whatever I want and don't give a shit about what the people around think of me. I like whatever I want and feel whatever I want. If ti would have been two years ago, I wouldn't have been able to say that I love hockey without getting so much shit for it.

I'm not even sure if my real friends have accepted that I love hockey. (haha as I wrote thid I was going to write, 'like hockey' but then a decided, no wait 'love hockey' but it already stood love... Weird)

Now I'm going to keep writing my article about My Chemical Romance, see ya!

So why don't you blow me a kiss before I go?

Keep running!

I'm so sad (T.G.I.F)

Oh no, this wasn't planned. The guys weren't suposed to lose! It all felt pretty good in the beginning, and then it all went downhill, well in fact, no, because Pardubice is the better team, the only thing is that they can't score... (wich is what it's all about)

It's a hell of a big hill to climb now. Three wins in a row, that (ain't) gonna happen!

Urgh, I was so sad (and I still am but I'm starting to melt it now) when the guys lost. I almost wanted to cry and do like Koukal, just destroy something. It wasn't fair.

Urgh, then I relived it all in my dreams during the night. The last goal, the broken stick, the sad and angry faces. Everything.

My life is all messed up. I have got a small headache and I'm still pretty sad. The cold isn't over yet, it has come to that state when I just cough all the time, if I'm lucky it'll be oven on Sunday, if I'm unlucky it'll last for two weeks... I didn't sleep so much this night, since I woke up at 4:10 and didn't really fall asleep again till like an hour later, and then it was pretty much time to get up. (At least in the matter of an hour...)

Thank God It's Friday! This has been one of the longest weeks in my life. Today, dad will come home and were going to be rat-watchers for Tomas's rat, hmm, it's going to be interesting. I'm trying to learn the whole lyrics to Planetary (GO!), I don't know why but it's a great song and it has got a long text with a cool meaning (in fact I think is my subcontiousness telling me to think about something else than the game and the guys).

I think that's it from me today, or at least for now. I'll be back, you know it!

Bye all!

It's Just Like Déjà Vu

There's this guy in the class I'm going to that freaks me out! He looks a little bit like a bloke that I had a very strange but funny relation to. And that's what's freaking me out, how someone that I don't know can remind me about someone and tear my heart to pieces.

I miss that time so bad sometimes, especially times like this.

I remember when we were deskmates and did everything else but the stuff we were suposed to. I said to my friends that I was in love with him but nowadays I think I was wrong, we were more like brothers and sisters. Haha, once when we fought about something he pushed me from my chair and I laid on the chair with my legs and the rest of my body hanging down halfway to the floor. I laghed so hard I almost died. And everyone else thought I had some mental illness. And poor teacher... I've got a feeling of that I'd never ever escape with doing that here in Czech Republis as I got away with it in Sweden. The thing is, when I tell abou this, it all sounds really crazy but if you were me, you'd understand how much these tiny memories mean to me, it's like reading a book again, sometimes it's a bad book, sometimes it's a good book.

I wonder if he remember me...

I wouldn't be suprised if he doesn't...

I don't even think he thought I was funny back then, I just exsisted, and he probably thought I was really annoying.

(I should really talk to him sometime)

Would I be alone and not i school I'd be sitting here laughing and crying at the same time.

(I know, like the oldest photo ever, or what... I'm in school this was the only one. btw Frank's my wife)

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

I'll defently be crying tonight, all my friends, I mean like all my friends are going to Stockholm today and watch MCR. I'm so freaking sad!! And they haven't planned anything in Prague, I guess they won't either... Maybe, with a huge maybe, I'll go and see them in Wien the 27th of June (the day after my birthday) it'd be great, but I don't think I will be allowed to do that, you know, parents, hehe...

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

(Freja, why do you write ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba everywhere? Well, because that's what's on my brain, just sounds, meaningless sounds, and it's a part of Kill All Your Friends wich is my favorite song right now)

This was a really rondom blogpost, hopefully it tells alot about me. Like I'm a very random person, who's gonna watch hockey tomorrow by the way, and I like to share my randomness with you guys!

Bye all!

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba

Hey all!

Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba...

I have to stop shit-chatting with people til late every evening. I feel like a zombie today. I will surivive, hopefully!

So today will just be like normal, at least the school because later we'll go to the arena and watch Vendy skate. I'll bring the big camera (I always get happy when I think about using that camera) and take lots of photos and hopefully my computer will work so I can show you some.

I really need to repare my computer, the only thing is that I checked it just two days ago and it wasn't any probmel with it. I think it's better now anyways, because it turn off at least, before when I turned it off (or tried) it just stood there without any changes so I had to turn off the power and just let it die. Urgh, I hate doing that, I feel bad inside when I do that. (It's something mental)

A picture says more than a thousand words...

My dad's back from Sweden now, but I haven't met him yet, I guess he'll show up at the arena later. He went to Stockholm this week, he was in Prague last week and he'll go to Gothenburg next week. I sort of miss him, but I still think is's pretty nice without all the fights all the time.

I've just had Music, I'm writin about My Chemical Romance, this far I'm only at Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge and I've wrote one and a half page... It'll be more... I promise! Like I have to write about The Black Parade and Danger Days (and the other CD's) and some stuff about each of them, I won't be done this year if I'll keep on like this... I feel kinda bad for listening to MCR, like I'm letting Green Day down, I love them but I never listen to them... And I'm not keeping up with the news either, like I haven't listen to Cigaretts and Valentines 'til now... Sad... They ment so much to me, like that was what kept me alive...

Now things have changed...

Finally everything works all at once, FaceBook, Twitter, Blogger, bdb, YouTube... But my headphones to my iPod, my phone and my computer don't work... Wich is kinda sad, but The phone is old, the headphones are just that free shit you get when you buy the iPod and the computer... urgh... it just hasn't worked propperly ever.

I have to tell you, I want to buy an Australia flag and put it over my bed... It'd be awesome! But strange, like I've never been to Australia and still I love the country so much I'd buy a huge flag... In fact we're maybe going to Australia summer 2012 (before the end of the world...), to Adelaide of all places but that's because Hoopy our Aussie friend's from there and we'll live in their house. I want 2012! But in a way not, that's going to be a strange summer, however my family do, I won't stay in Czech Republic and I have to move to Sweden... Or to Prague, wich would be strange... And it wouldn't work...

So enough depressing stuff... Bye all!

Today with Freja

I started the day with waking up, and then pancakes for breakfast, we don't usually have pancakes for breakfast but they where left overs from yesterday so why not? Hten I went to the Czech school and had English and P.E, as usually I got lost in the building and ended up outside the classroom I was going to just by accident and met the woman who invited me to the school and she comfirmed that I was on the right place.

I love people accepting me for being messy...

And then when I was going from the English class to the P.E I met an old friend from when I went swimming, she got really suprised, I see why, I haven't told her... Stupid me! On the P.E I'm not sure what we did, I didn't do so much at least...

Then it was time for me to get back to my own school, I started to walk to the bus stop and just as I arrived the bus that I had planned to take left, so I had to walk, wich took about 30 minutes but it was a really nice walk, I didn't take the fastest route, I didn't want to take the fastest route either. I enjoy walking and I have to admit, I was on a place I had never been to, wich was cool.

I wasn't lost I promise.

So I went back to my school and the day dragged itself to 1:30pm and then I, Embla and Jess were suposed to do some inlines but the weather had other plans and we ended up watching Little Miss Sunshine, it's a great movie about just how weird the world is... I love the movie, it's one of my favorites and it's impossible to forget about it.

I just checked out hcpce.cz and noticet THAT PARDUBICE AIN'T GONNA MEET TRINEC!! I'm so freaking happy, meeting Trinec wouldn't be so good, but Vitkovite isn't to play with either but still they feel more like a semi-team this year (even though it was a final-team last year...), I'm still not sure about what Pardubice feels like, during some periods of this season I didn't feel like they'd make it to the play-offs...

I've been thinking about where to get all the non album songs by MCR, I've fallen in love with Kill All your Friends right now... Ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba... (in fact I've only got My Way Home Is Through You on my iPod as a non album song...) I think I can probably buy them through iTunes, but then I need an acount, wich my dad has got but it doesn't work for some reason... Hopefully maybe some of my friends have downloaded some of the songs...

I think that's pretty much it, I was suposed to go to the footballtraining today but I didn't go because of the weather, well that's not the true reason you see I love ruinning around in the rain but I didn't want to... I never want to but I feel good afterwards.

Bye all!